Going through some religious ocd thoughts and feelings right now:( how I wish I was normal

Thoughts and feelings of blasphemy :(

@sillybilly What was the thought that distressed you? What do you think that thought means about you? Then what did you do after that? Did you do anything physically or mentally to try soothe that discomfort? Regardless if it worked or not. Even just typing out these answers you are able to observe what was going on in a detached observation. You don't have to change how you did it or figure out the solution, the exercise is just to observe what went on for you. ?

@sillybilly The fact that it bothered you means that you don’t believe such things. I am experiencing things like that I am working on recovering through treatment and informing myself correctly I suggest to you to look up a video on YouTube of a priest that understand this form of ocd his name is father Tom Santa and he has helped me a lot along with other things I’ve read and also therapy you learn that the thoughts that feel terrible blasphemous, even as I write this I’m having intrusive thoughts , keep pushing but don’t let the thoughts win they’re not real they’re not true they’re just there to shock you on what you value and want to be the most certain about I know they’re scary and they make you feel like you’ve become someone you’re not but you haven’t become that and you won’t become that, it’s just ocd and none of the thoughts are your beliefs understanding this is key in beginning to recover I suggest therapy

@ButterflyStar I don’t even want to type the thought out? but I think that means I don’t really love God and that I’m a bad person . Then after that I would usually come on here to calm me down (that’s why I took a break from this app for a few days)

@sesr Thank you!

@sillybilly Don’t feel discouraged if after reading what I posted you don’t feel cured from the intrusive thoughts, it takes exposure to your fears with a therapist and understanding of what the problem is but I’m telling you that the problem is not religious it’s mental, you didn’t offend God and I know it’s scary to type out thoughts because you feel they will become real but that’s not true, even when you have intrusive thoughts against typing things go and type them until it becomes easier and you lose the fear as I’m learning God loves us all and faith means you keep going even when you feel uncertain, faith is not feeling holy all the time , you are not your thoughts

@sesr it seems that you have a great knowledge about it suffring from the same issue

@nunu Not great knowledge but I’ve been reading good information about it since I am going through it at the moment and I can’t stay stuck with it because I don’t like the feeling and it hurts others around me who love me and it I love them then it means I have to heal to love them back again no matter what have faith in God

@sesr these thoughts are so painful but I am trying to fight with it these thoughts are increasing sometime so badly even when someone do work against my will is triggers the ocd??

@nunu I’m not gonna ask you to tell me about your thoughts because I know typing them makes you feel anxious as I was in the beginning but you should understand that the thoughts mean nothing they feel like you’re creating them but you’re not there’s no need to get attached to them just because they appear in your mind when you do things, they are trying to scare you into doing compulsions and feeling scared but you don’t have to let them you should get therapy and apply the knowledge you read about don’t give up have faith God loves you

@sesr okay well thank you nice to talk with you

@nunu Don’t give up faith is having uncertainty and having faith is the cure