Lina
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AnonymousAnonymous
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Same I legit thought I turned gay
sanš»sanš»
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Me too
AnonymousAnonymous
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Do u also get groinal responses that feel like arousal
sanš»sanš»
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Yeah
AnonymousAnonymous
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First I am gonna give you a reassurance story and I will tell you exactly what you need to : I was watching a movie and a sex scene came on a thought came say what if your aroused by the man and I that thought before but it didnāt make question make sexuality then after I searched in the internet my anxiety was off the roof while searching then I just forget about and ignored the thoughts they went and a week later a thought popped saying what if your bi that triggered my hocd again I went in the internet and found hocd I related to the symptoms of it and read forums again and sometimes same forums for reassurance after that I tried to be happy and hide it but the feeling was still their and disturbing thoughts popped into my head by the way I only had this since March 2020 so itās not long but I have endured hell I canāt even watch movies without the thoughts being their I cried silently at night then I even question if I have hocd and itās a cover up I am still suffering from this because I canāt get help I have false arousal I am still attracted to girls but as much as before now I always check if I am being aroused and I check if the thoughts make me aroused I analyse my past to see if thereās proof
sanš»sanš»
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I analyse and remember my past constantly to see if I was ever attracted to girls. I never fancied any girl at all. I have only fancied guys, wanted to be physical with them, had more emotional, romantic and sexual connection only with them. Im so scared that I turned gay out of fucking nowhere. I also revisit forums and articles to reassure myself but it doesn't work anymore. I can't watch anything without feeling gay ?. I also can't enjoy my straight thoughts, I feel like I only like the idea of it but not the reality of it. I'm so scared I'll date a girl in the future :(
Stealthhero22 Stealthhero22
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Whatās hocd?
sanš»sanš»
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Homosexual OCD also known as sexual orientation OCD (soocd)
That1girlThat1girl
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Rt
AnonymousAnonymous
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Also I had thought of what if I kissed the same sex and I liked it
sanš»sanš»
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Oh god I have that too :(
AnonymousAnonymous
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Can you tell me in full detail how you got this and your overall experience I have a therapy degree I can help
sanš»sanš»
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The intrusive thoughts started back in Dec 2018, when I would get random thoughts of girls being sexual with me. I would flinch at them but they weren't so strong back then. In Aug, 2019 I developed hocd severely after I watched a sex scene between two girls, and I questioned if I'd do that. That frightened me to the point I started to cry thinking I was really gay. The same night that I got hocd, I came out to my mother saying "i feel I might be gay..." She was immediately kind of weirded out because she knew how much I love guys and romantic and sexual thoughts of them. After "coming out" I cried continuously for the next 2-3 days. After months of being worried that I'm secretly gay, I found out about hocd. I matched with all the symptoms and it made sense what was happening. I joined nocd like two weeks later but then deleted my account and left. I came back again in April of this year after my hocd got more severe. Overall my hocd has been consuming. They are always on my mind, I'm anxious all the time, daily activities are hard to do, can't concentrate in my studies etc. Initially during hocd, I was sure I had it, but as time has went by I'm not so sure. Everything feels like im gay because I'm numb to the thoughts. I don't enjoy my straight thoughts/desires anymore, don't have sexual and romantic attraction, no libido. I also can't imagine a boy's face or body anymore which bothers me a lot. I want to have straight thoughts but it just doesn't happen. Sometimes I'm scared that my signs rn are actually me being internally homophobic or in comphet. I am scared and worried all the time, my obsessions are becoming more intrusive day by day, are getting weirder and more opposing to my personal values
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