for people in recovery or people who have recovered: does it get better? will i be able to live my life normally without having this sense of dread, disgust, guilt, and pain? im so afraid of being this way forever. i feel like i’m never gonna get my life back.

same :(( i don’t think i’ve heard of someone being stuck in ocd after treatment. i’ve only heard good things but my mind somehow tries to tell me that i’ll always be stuck in this deep deep abyss.

@ocdsvcks SAME. But you know what, we can learn to manage it. This quarantine has me so depressed but I know it will be so amazing when it’s over. We deserve to get our lives back

@ocdsvcks I feel that. I get so scared I’ll either be stuck like this or become what I fear the most sometimes but then I have good moments and I’m like wait. I can do this. I can get better if I do the work.

@light lover I had an epiphany today to just start thinking of any intrusive thought as a movie and just be like woah that’s a crazy movie my brain just played. It’s helped today lol

@light lover omg that’s so good!! i keep trying to separate my self from my thoughts but it’s so hard

@ocdsvcks Me freaking too. I struggle with harm ocd & there’s moments that the anxiety gets so bad that i feel like something horrible is really going to happen. But this afternoon every time I had an intrusive thought I’d just respond with woah that’s a crazy scene in a movie & it’s helped.

@ocdsvcks I’m also starting hypnotherapy on Friday to see if that happens separate myself from my thoughts too because right now it’s so bad I can’t even do ERP.

@light lover oh no!! :(( im sorry u have to deal with that. it truly sucks. but im glad you’ve found something that works for u. even though i have multiple themes, right now im struggling the most with real event ocd and incest ocd. the worst part is that my incest ocd is fueled by my past attractions towards my cousins. i know how terrible it sounds and i know that it’s disgusting but i just remind my self that people can be attracted to anything. what differentiates between someone who likes incest and someone who doesn’t is if u act on it. this has given me a lot of ease because i just feel so disgusting thinking about committing these acts with my family members. i just can’t stop feeling this immense guilt and disgust surrounding it even though i know i would never act on these thoughts or these attractions

@ocdsvcks We all have confusing or out of character thoughts. You’re not your thoughts.

@light lover thank u so much :(( it’s like ocd is fueling these thoughts with how i feel and i literally feel disgusting about it. i feel like a stranger in my own body and ashamed that i would ever feel this way towards my cousins. literally i considered a LOBOTOMY last night because i’d do anything to escape this guilt and disgust