Hello everyone . I hope everyone is doing okay during these difficult times. I recently stopped taking my meds because I am trying to get pregnant. That being said my anxiety has been a little bit through the roof . I ordered a couple things off of amazon awhile back and I called them and told them that I didn’t receive my package so that I’d get my money back . I’ve done this a couple of times. I know I shouldn’t have. And I don’t plan on doing it again. However now my brain keeps telling me that I am being investigated and that I will go to jail. It has me absolutely terrified and stressed out and I can’t be this stressed out when I am trying to have a baby . Lately I just can’t seem to find any peace these days . Any advice on this ? I could really use some support .

Ahh real event OCD. Can't give you any guarantees. It's possible that they have other stuff to bother about and are never going to care and they've put it down to a light-fingered postie, and also possible that something suspicious about it was flagged and they're looking at it. I suppose ultimately they couldn't prove it even if they thought it, and you knew that at the time. Someone was just posting on here saying it helps them to remind themselves that if they felt ok or meh with something before they got OCD about it, they can feel that way again. Your brain which took the risk in the first place was doing a risk assessment which is probably a lot better than the one you're doing now. My main recommendation is to literally distract yourself. Tell this worry that you'll solve it later, start by saying you'll solve it tomorrow but not today, and you'll eventually progress to being able to say we'll cross that bridge if it ever comes to it. As it's a legal thing, if you do want to put it right and they were untracked, you could always get back in touch and say that the items did finally arrive you just forgot to tell them. They'd likely re-charge you and assume it was some kind of issue at the warehouse. But that could open up to new paranoid worries that it would raise suspicion and they'll check with the warehouse and some sort of paper trail could prove it wrong. But you'd have paid, I suppose, which could be enough for them to stop looking at it if they previously were. Lots of maybes from every angle. That's what OCD thrives on. Basically, OCD always replaces one set of anxieties with another. It tells you that you should do stuff to Prevent The Bad Thing, and then you find uncertainty and problems in the action you took. I have a habit of literally confessing stuff I haven't done based on guilty triggered feelings and ideas and a moral "just in case" and wanting to test how true it feels etc. Everything from "who ate my chocolate bar?" to crimes or potential crimes. We do compulsions to relieve the OCD and they make sense at the time because we just want to feel better. But they just end up adding layers and layers. I'd say don't do anything to try to fix the situation, the fact that the scenario you've made up of what could happen is causing anxiety doesn't make it any more realistic than it was when you found it easy not to worry about it. So back to what I said at the start- the you who took that risk was a better risk assessor than you are now when you're deep in your OCD. Try to trust her, as I'm sure you weighed it up before you did it, work on your OCD and you can get back to having the same perspective as her. I only have one piece of reassurance for you, just for the sake of being realistic: jail for a first-timer opportunistic theft charge? Unlikely. Where, assuming it wasn't tracked and signed for and wasn't an electronic that you've registered, it can't even reliably be shown "beyond a reasonable doubt" that you received it? Even more unlikely. And don't do it again silly.

Try to tell yourself what will happen if I go to jail Ask yourself What are the things that scare you about jail