I was good for a couple days then today it’s been bad. I can’t tell if it’s real anymore, ugh. It feels real but I don’t want to date girls I swear. I HATE THIS. It’s always like “i don’t want to date girls. Well what if you do?” Like why?

wow, i think i’m the exception too

I kinda think about stuff like that. Like I’ll say “I dony like girls” and then my mind is like “well what if you do?” And it makes everything so annoying

@crazyfeelings yh. if i say “i don’t like girls” my brian is like “really? well lemme just bring out this very insignificant memory from your childhood so you can doubt yourself”

@mentowillness *brain

Same my HOCD has just hit a new low for me. I don’t feel panic and I don’t feel anxiousness. I feel like I’m bisexual. My mind is the only thing that’s fighting for me to cling to my identity but it’s like the rest of me has accepted that label and it’s so scary. Like I can’t cry or get upset I’m so stoic against it but then OCD tells me when I fight against it I’m in denial. I don’t know what to do.

@Anonymous I feel the exact same, it feels like my mind is the one holding on to the old me, but a humongous part of me doesn’t want to give up and let the old me just be a memory. It’s so scary, i feel like i’m genuinely in denial like if i like the thoughts and want to be gay but i don’t want to. I also get urges to come out to my parents, does this happen to you?

@stephb Yes to my uncle and mom. I’m a girl so when friends or family ask me about a boyfriend I get uncomfortable because I want that but I’m afraid I might not get it.

This is something I see a lot. No. It's not inward homophobia. There are gay people with hocd who freak out the exact same way because they feel like their OCD is forcing them to be straight. Would that be heterophobia? No, I don't think so. What if you obsessed everyday over being straight and felt as if you were slowly pushed against your will towards doing things with the opposite sex that you don't want to do? I'm really frustrated seeing this question over and over again. No one wants their identity to be forcefully ripped away from them.

trust me it’s anything but internalised homophobia. i have hocd and i’ve always been such a strong all for gay rights. it’s the worst thing in the world. it’s intrusive thoughts that plague your mind 24/7 to the point where you can’t even be around your female family members or female friends. you get intrusive sexually thoughts about anyone of the same sex (doesn’t matter the age for me i will get the intrusive thought)

@mentowillness I have absolutely no problem with the LGBTQ community. I’ve always been very supportive of them. The thing is if these thoughts were true I would just accept that I’m a lesbian because it really wouldn’t be a big deal. But I know I’m not that way so it bothers me even more than it needs to! I just want to keep my identity and not feel like I’m something I’m not. It’s very scary and confusing :( But no I have no problem with anyone from that community, and I will always be very supportive of every one no matter what sexual orientation they are. Everyone deserves to be treated the same!

@crazyfeelings Thank you kindly for your informative response. ? it means a lot to me. I didn’t realize asking a question to get some knowledge would involve people jumping down my throat. Thank you for being patient and kind. If you ever need someone to talk or listen, I am here. ; u;

@PastelWitch You’re so welcome! It’s perfectly fine to ask questions I don’t mind it.? Also I’m here if you ever need anything too!! Thank you so much <3

@PastelWitch i’m just wondering. who was jumping down your throat?