worryqueen
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Quite UnknownQuite Unknown
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Instead of saying i am a bad person you should say OCD makes me feel like I am a bad person.
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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∆∆∆∆great advice
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worryqueenworryqueen
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Thank you for understanding. I just feel terrible, because this is something I stand against now obviously but everything I look at tells me that it was child on child sexual abuse. I hate myself for it, but your insight has helped a bit. Thank you.
Quite UnknownQuite Unknown
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Of course this was not child to child abuse and I'm a little shocked that you hate yourself for this incident. You should at least have the insight that this is OCD talking and there's no reason to hate yourself. OCD is trying to make you feel like you're bad person and you fall for it don't do that. There is nothing bad with this incident.
worryqueenworryqueen
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Wow. Thank you for that insight, I needed it. I'm not sure why but I've just been thinking the ocd is making me obsess over this situation and not actually distorting my view on it, or what it actually was. But a webiste I looked at did file having 4 yrs between the two people abnormal, and I'm still iffy about the situation where she was sleeping. It just makes me feel wrong.
AnonymousAnonymous
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you were 10 though, and the fact that you’re acknowledging what you did and you’re not okay with it is a sign that you’re not a monster. A real monster wouldn’t care if it was good or bad and continue to do it. Trust me, you a far from a monster
worryqueenworryqueen
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Yeah, I may not be a monster now. But knowing I once was is too much to bear. I feel like sexual is so important and a terrible crime. So I feel like a criminal-- even more so for not telling my sister that I made her grope me in my sleep. I just... it's too much for me to handle. I'm weak.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@worryqueen I would hug you so tight rn but obviously I can’t. You aren’t your past, you’re not a criminal. You weren’t one then, and you aren’t one now. You were 10 years old, as a 10 year old you don’t logically think about things like that. It’s okay
worryqueenworryqueen
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@ocdgirl$ummer Thank you so much. I feel like I've read too much about the topic. I've looked at articles of children who were actually convicted for things like this, and I guess if theres a 4 yr she gap it's wrong. I have too much info, I guess. Consent is key, that's all I know, and a sleeping person cant consent.
Quite UnknownQuite Unknown
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The reality is: it's not with one second to think about this incident. The more you analyze the more you look up those things in the internet, the worse you will feel teaching your brain that something is important which in reality is not. Every second you deal with this incident is making it worse be it asking others for reassurance, looking in the Internet, or analyzing and ruminating. Every second counts. Instead of concentrating your powers on finding out what happened or to reassure yourself that you are not a bad person you should concentrate your power on just leaving the topic behind.
worryqueenworryqueen
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Thank you, I needed this reminder. I know the only way to leave it behind is to accept it and forgive myself, but it just feels incomplete in my brain. OCD makes me think theres a missing puzzle piece that needs to fit in, and I hate it.
Quite UnknownQuite Unknown
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with=worth
Quite UnknownQuite Unknown
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Yes I know this is exactly what OCD does. It gives you the feeling that if you only solve this last question everything will be great forever. The longer you prevail not to give into this the less search will become to get this final answer. And as I said you should consider taking SSRIs to make it easier for you.
worryqueenworryqueen
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It's a tricky and horrible disorder. I'm going to try and find a therapist first to help me with this, then I will consider taking SSRIs. My hypochondria makes me hesitant to take meds.
Quite UnknownQuite Unknown
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Search= urge
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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Are you aware that you're engaging in loads of compulsions? If they worked, you'd have felt better after confessing to your mom .... But you don't feel better
worryqueenworryqueen
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I know. I just dont have anyone to say this too rn because I'm not seeing a therapist when I really need to.
AnonymousAnonymous
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*you are far from a monster
Quite UnknownQuite Unknown
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I know, OCD likes to prevent you from taking meds. It's really tricky.
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