I know that this really sucks. I'm tired of this...every single day all the time. Can I get a break??? ?

Jaedenw2 honestly it's the worst! And the only relief I get are from reassurances and things that we're not supposed to use for help....ocd is so much stronger than people know. I'm starting to feel it's at the root of many other disorders

I know the feeling. Every second of everyday for me no matter what. Maybe one day I keep telling my self.

It’s hard to understand OCD for myself. I always battle myself. My OCD came to me in December of last year. The 13th on a Friday of all times. I became scared and took myself to the ER. I had a bad reaction to a med and it gave me a medical induced psychosis. The Er wasn’t trained for me and I was 1013 code and sent to a ward. I stayed 8 days in fear of my life and the thoughts started to form as with no sleep and being away from family. A doctor in only 3 min out of 8 days when I was discharged after cycle of pills they threw at me told me I had ocd. The months that followed where hard. I isolated myself, kept away from family and friends due to harm ocd. I was left with ptsd and intrusive harmful thoughts which I didn’t understand because I’ve never been a bad person. I love everyone close to me specially my family, but I’ve learned ocd makes me question my thoughts as if they have some meaning behind them. I’ve seen doctors, I’ve seen doctors, I’m doing therapy with 2 therapists one from NOCD and I have a psychiatrist also. Mornings are hard for me I wake up and relieve 6 months in my head, the ups and downs and some mornings I cry till I can’t anymore. I say a prayer every night if god would give me this ocd and everyone else’s I would take it and carry it for everyone else so no one had to go through ocd. That lets me know I’m still me inside. I never heard the washing machine analogy but makes perfect sense to me though. Therapy will come on your time when you are ready Poohbear. Just know your not alone. I know everyone says that I struggle with it myself.

Sailor22 my heart goes out to you. What you endured is so difficult. Thank you for sharing and it feels good to know I'm not alone...although like u I wish no one would suffer through this. Mornings are hard it's like it hits you..another day of dread..in the last year I recap for over 30 years of stuff only finding negative things to obsess about which only proves that I'm a bad person...but the crazy part is that I obsess about treating everyone nicely because I want to be liked. I have low self esteem and have always judged myself by what other ppl think of me...I'm sure u can see the problems that come from that. I think we should collect these and publish a book...I really could have used these personal posts in my 20s...Lol I might be the oldest person here

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Sailor22 I tell myself that too...each night I'm like ok tomorrow I will figure this out because I'm learning more and more about it but then tomorrow comes and I have more stuff in my head. I keep thinking about a posting where this really nice calm advocate compares it to being in a washing machine and we get out and feel disoriented but I'm feeling like I'm still in the washing machine...maybe thats because I dont go thru with therapy

I’m just a beginner in OCD at the age of 35 it hit me. I couldn’t imagine not having outlets. Shows how strong of a person you are poohbear

Hey sailor...I'm 33. It started for me when I was a kid but got bad, really bad at like 29...I feel like an old woman on her dying bed the way all I do is think about the past. I am trying to live in the moment though at least that's what I tell myself when I'm fed up with the thoughts. It helps sometimes but according to this app all the things that make me feel better are no no's. And you're strong too! Yeah I almost cried when I found this app...I couldnt believe other people feel the way I do and they can describe it so well.