It feels like I don’t even care anymore what I do, like I can grab boobs and do that and just not care anymore but I don’t wanna I hate this I just wanna be straight This isn’t how a lesbian feels if this is I HATE IT

So you weren't disgusted? And felt nothing isntead right?

@WildMan i was disgusted. in fact i felt sick to my stomach and it reached point where i couldn’t eat and get out of bed because i spent every day questioning myself. chrissie hodges’ youtube videos really made me feel better and helped me understand my ocd and as time passed, i learned how to deal with it better. tough times never last, i promise. sometimes i wish i had hocd instead of the themes i have now, they hurt more

@sunlight034 Idek if I’m disgusted tho Like I’m scared once I follow through with it I’ll like it but I don’t wanna do it Did you feel like that?? Cause I just was testing on my friend and I would not wanna kiss that rlly grosses me out but I’m scared once I do I would like it:( But like I said I don’t wanna

@hate_ocd.123 This is what i have currently, i can barely find others with this

@WildMan Oh rlly??

@hate_ocd.123 i had that too, i thought i secretly liked it. the fact it bothers u this much and stresses you out this much shows you don’t

@sunlight034 But you said you felt really disgusted, i've been doing testing for months now and it doesn't disgust me anymore wich worries me.

@WildMan at the beginning i felt disgusted but after time passed by i felt normal again and now i’ve realised that it’s not a big deal and my brain will make me think everything is an issue that needs to be solved when it isn’t. there are straight people like myself who watch female and male gay porn and get turned on because if it’s sexual it’s bound to happen and it’s completely natural

@sunlight034 Ill be real, I’m currently dealing with HOCD I think and I even had horrible dreams about animals and family members which were women so nothing makes sense and I hate all of those things there digesting

@sunlight034 I feel. I’ve tried to stop caring and continuing on with my life but it’s like mentally I can’t get better. And I’m so jealous of girls that don’t worry they’re gay and actually like guys. Do y’all feel like that?:( is that how a gay person would feel?? Like I just wanna like guys is that too much to ask for