Does your harm ocd thoughts ever tell you you want to do the things your worried about? I always worry I’m gonna become a serial killer or just go crazy and kill people. Everytime I worry about this I go no no I don’t want to do that I’d never do that but my thoughts tell me “I do wanna do that I’m an evil person” and “I wanna kill people” these leads me to even more anxiety and I literally burst into tears everytime it’s horrible

Harm OCD

emmaann

Date posted: 5y

Yes! All the time! I thought I was the only one. For example I get intrusive thoughts about harming people and myself, and whenever I get them my ocd twists it and makes me sad “I want to kill my dad” or “I want to die” and it’s so scary. I get what you’re dealing with. It’s really hard to deal with but the best thing I’ve done is to distract myself. Let the thoughts be there, don’t push them away. accept them and try and focus on things that make you happy

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Thank you so so much for your reply. I thought I was the only one who had these. I find them so so hard to deal with and they cause me so much distress. I try to ignore them but sometimes I just can’t and end up crying for hours. I’ve spent so long telling myself they I would never do these things and that I’d never do them and now my thoughts are telling me I do want to do that and that I do want to do the awful things I’m fearing.

Butterfly

Date posted: 5y

I have hocd as well. I know these are scary thoughts. My therapist recommended for me to make statement that doesn't give OCD the guarantee that it wants.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

What do you mean by this?

Butterfly

Date posted: 5y

Our OCD tells us that we must perform a compulsion so nothing bad will happen. With hocd our compulsion is telling ourselves that nothing bad will happen. Work on accepting that we can't guarantee that nothing bad will happen and let your thoughts come and go. Amagine your thoughts are like a butterfly flying into your room when the window is open. We can try to get the buttery to fly back out by waving, fanning, etc., Or we can just let the butterfly fly around and eventually out. People with harm OCD do not want to hurt anyone, this is why the thoughts are so distressing. No one, however, can ever guarantee anyone that they will not do something to hurt someone else.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Thank you so much for this reply. I just don’t know what my thoughts are saying I want to these things I’m fearing.

Butterfly

Date posted: 5y

I would recommend that you discuss this with a therapist.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

I am. I’m have a call schedule with her today. Thank you for your help.

Butterfly

Date posted: 5y

@mynameiszoe Your welcome! I wish you success with your therapist.

Dess

Date posted: 5y

I’m so sorry you are experiencing this as I do too. It’s so hard. I remember thinking oh okay what if I take ideas from movies and become dexter or something or if I would enjoy doing that stuff. It’s really tough, especially when it comes to the ones you love and even when it’s random.

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22w

Does anyone ever mimic/imagine harm OCD thoughts?

Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.

Astjtoju13!

Date posted: 17w

Harm ocd

Someone please help me I’m having intrusive thoughts of hurting my pets and I’m really scared of myself and I want these thoughts to go away. Can someone please help me I’m scared and I don’t know if I’m a monster

joshuadrennen

Date posted: 15w

struggling with harm OCD

i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help

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