Does your harm ocd thoughts ever tell you you want to do the things your worried about? I always worry I’m gonna become a serial killer or just go crazy and kill people. Everytime I worry about this I go no no I don’t want to do that I’d never do that but my thoughts tell me “I do wanna do that I’m an evil person” and “I wanna kill people” these leads me to even more anxiety and I literally burst into tears everytime it’s horrible

Harm OCD

emmaann

Date posted: 5y

Yes! All the time! I thought I was the only one. For example I get intrusive thoughts about harming people and myself, and whenever I get them my ocd twists it and makes me sad “I want to kill my dad” or “I want to die” and it’s so scary. I get what you’re dealing with. It’s really hard to deal with but the best thing I’ve done is to distract myself. Let the thoughts be there, don’t push them away. accept them and try and focus on things that make you happy

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Thank you so so much for your reply. I thought I was the only one who had these. I find them so so hard to deal with and they cause me so much distress. I try to ignore them but sometimes I just can’t and end up crying for hours. I’ve spent so long telling myself they I would never do these things and that I’d never do them and now my thoughts are telling me I do want to do that and that I do want to do the awful things I’m fearing.

Butterfly

Date posted: 5y

I have hocd as well. I know these are scary thoughts. My therapist recommended for me to make statement that doesn't give OCD the guarantee that it wants.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

What do you mean by this?

Butterfly

Date posted: 5y

Our OCD tells us that we must perform a compulsion so nothing bad will happen. With hocd our compulsion is telling ourselves that nothing bad will happen. Work on accepting that we can't guarantee that nothing bad will happen and let your thoughts come and go. Amagine your thoughts are like a butterfly flying into your room when the window is open. We can try to get the buttery to fly back out by waving, fanning, etc., Or we can just let the butterfly fly around and eventually out. People with harm OCD do not want to hurt anyone, this is why the thoughts are so distressing. No one, however, can ever guarantee anyone that they will not do something to hurt someone else.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Thank you so much for this reply. I just don’t know what my thoughts are saying I want to these things I’m fearing.

Butterfly

Date posted: 5y

I would recommend that you discuss this with a therapist.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

I am. I’m have a call schedule with her today. Thank you for your help.

Butterfly

Date posted: 5y

@mynameiszoe Your welcome! I wish you success with your therapist.

Dess

Date posted: 5y

I’m so sorry you are experiencing this as I do too. It’s so hard. I remember thinking oh okay what if I take ideas from movies and become dexter or something or if I would enjoy doing that stuff. It’s really tough, especially when it comes to the ones you love and even when it’s random.

Dreamydream

Date posted: 25w

Question please

Can harm ocd thoughts appear like “i want” or “im going to” someone please lmk if they experienced this 😣

alyssa_h

Date posted: 23w

i can’t do this much longer

i’m having a full on panic attack, i never used to be like this, what tf is happening to me, why am i like this, i’m so convinced i’m a horrible person and i deserve to be shut out forever because of my thoughts, i’m tired of struggling with harm ocd, i’m scared that because i have mental health issues i’m gonna end up ki!!ing someone someday or end up on the news, when i was at work earlier i kept thinking “how easy would it be to ki!! someone and get away with it” someone help, i don’t feel normal, am i crazy?… 😭😭i know that with ocd you’re not supposed to have reassurance and you have to be “okay” with the situation but.. how am i supposed to be okay with feeling like i could hurt someone…

Brian.Hope

Date posted: 21w

Harm ocd

Hey, I suffer from harm ocd and I feel as if it’s non stop everything I do everyday I believe I killed someone I believe it’s harm ocd and false memory but like today I went to the store and saw a older lady and my head thinks of images of me pushing them or killing then and right after that thought I feel as if I done it then the rest of the day I ruminate replaying everything. I know erp and I should just accept the thought and let it go but it’s not easy and I feel as if i really hurt or killed someone and I don’t want to go to jail for something I don’t want to do . Any tips would be appreciated I don’t know how to accept and move on when it feels so real that I did something!

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