Anonymous
- Date posted
- 5y
emmaannemmaann
- Date posted
- 5y
Yes! All the time! I thought I was the only one. For example I get intrusive thoughts about harming people and myself, and whenever I get them my ocd twists it and makes me sad “I want to kill my dad” or “I want to die” and it’s so scary. I get what you’re dealing with. It’s really hard to deal with but the best thing I’ve done is to distract myself. Let the thoughts be there, don’t push them away. accept them and try and focus on things that make you happy
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y
Thank you so so much for your reply. I thought I was the only one who had these. I find them so so hard to deal with and they cause me so much distress. I try to ignore them but sometimes I just can’t and end up crying for hours. I’ve spent so long telling myself they I would never do these things and that I’d never do them and now my thoughts are telling me I do want to do that and that I do want to do the awful things I’m fearing.
ButterflyButterfly
- Date posted
- 5y
I have hocd as well. I know these are scary thoughts. My therapist recommended for me to make statement that doesn't give OCD the guarantee that it wants.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y
What do you mean by this?
ButterflyButterfly
- Date posted
- 5y
Our OCD tells us that we must perform a compulsion so nothing bad will happen. With hocd our compulsion is telling ourselves that nothing bad will happen. Work on accepting that we can't guarantee that nothing bad will happen and let your thoughts come and go. Amagine your thoughts are like a butterfly flying into your room when the window is open. We can try to get the buttery to fly back out by waving, fanning, etc., Or we can just let the butterfly fly around and eventually out. People with harm OCD do not want to hurt anyone, this is why the thoughts are so distressing. No one, however, can ever guarantee anyone that they will not do something to hurt someone else.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y
Thank you so much for this reply. I just don’t know what my thoughts are saying I want to these things I’m fearing.
ButterflyButterfly
- Date posted
- 5y
I would recommend that you discuss this with a therapist.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y
I am. I’m have a call schedule with her today. Thank you for your help.
ButterflyButterfly
- Date posted
- 5y
@mynameiszoe Your welcome! I wish you success with your therapist.
DessDess
- Date posted
- 5y
I’m so sorry you are experiencing this as I do too. It’s so hard. I remember thinking oh okay what if I take ideas from movies and become dexter or something or if I would enjoy doing that stuff. It’s really tough, especially when it comes to the ones you love and even when it’s random.
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- Date posted
- 23w
I really need advice harm ocd
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AJ Rose
- Date posted
- 22w
I’m having really bad thoughts of harm ocd
Im sleeping over my boys house and im having bad thoughts to hurt him and it’s like I can see myself acting on it. I never want to hurt anyone… I hope someone can comment or give me advice as I lie in bed watching crime documentary. It messes with my OCD creates false fantasies
Dreamydream
- Date posted
- 20w
Question please
Can harm ocd thoughts appear like “i want” or “im going to” someone please lmk if they experienced this 😣
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