I mope around for days and barely do anything besides sleep, eat and shower. That is the bare minimum. Not working. I’ve been on this app a lot today. I can’t stop ruminating over bad things I have done and just lay in bed thinking about all of them. I am so depressed, literally everything is a trigger. I can barely go about my day without thinking of a bad thought. Some days I try to push through them. I just feel like the absolute worse person. I’ve lost desire for everything. I probably need to stay busy and stay on a schedule. But OCD has ruined everything!

I would love to talk to you!

@anxiouspotato Np! I just know that whenever I was at work I’d get these awful tics and I’d hide in the bathroom so no one would see them. Eventually I just started avoiding work altogether because I couldn’t handle the thought of messing up and getting fired. But I ended up quitting that job (it was retail, so I was mega stressed) and I just got a new job as a janitor. There will be less people so I think it’ll be a lot better, but I know how hard it is to keep a job. Most of the jobs I’ve had have given me panic attacks nearly every shift—but hopefully with the right help and a little time we can get through this and see things a little more clearly :)

@Jordyn ? I am sorry to hear about that. I too have wanted to skip work and school because of triggers. I hope that your new job will be a little easier on you!

@anxiouspotato Me too! And I totally understand that feeling. You want to avoid everything because you just want to feel some sense of peace, but it just ends up making everything worse :( just keep pushing though. You got this!

@Jordyn ? I feel this. I stay in bed and watch YouTube but I think I feel worse when I get up at 3 and realize I wasted a day. Pushing through is key

@Yikes1000X Sometimes you just have to make yourself get up even if your chest physically hurts and your heart is pounding, mind is spinning. Just making yourself DO SOMETHING, whatever it is, helps so much.

Thank you so much. It’s so rough sometimes.

And it triggered you into guilting yourself and feeling bad?

@anxiouspotato Well my mom yelled at me and I started feeling guilty then just seeing stuff on social media made me more sad. I feel terrible atm.

@imokay Hey, I struggled a lot with ocd when I was in my parents house. I want you to know it gets better

@Yikes1000X It’s definitely worse being in my parents house

@imokay I’m here if you would like to chat!

I agree

@anxiouspotato Don’t let ocd take away your life! We are stronger

@Yikes1000X Thank you! You as well! I am trying to best right now!