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- 6y ago
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- 6y ago
My main compulsion is checking. Especially self checking! I’m always checking to see if I’m aroused, my body for symptoms, my feelings about awful things like murder and rape etc. I also bite my skin as a nervous habit.
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- 6y ago
I have intrusive thoughts, especially around religion and my faith. I constantly have to fight ‘bad’ thoughts. I repeat phrases in my head or keep good images almost on a continual basis. It’s like a script is always running in the background. I can hide it a lot unless my anxiety is really high, then I get ‘stuck’ and can’t move on until I get the thoughts right. It’s torturous and exhausting.
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- 6y ago
Hey there, I am a checker, I pick at my fingers, I bite them, I write out random numbers because it feels good, and everything needs to turn in a clockwise motion.. What would you like to know about it?
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- 6y ago
I’m also a checker/ reassurance finder. I ask the same question over and over to my close family/friends that know what I’m dealing with. I check my body for signs of arousal. I reread articles about the theme I’m dealing with. All these things take up most of my day.
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- 6y ago
I also tap my pointer finger with my thumb down to my pinky counting 1 through 4 for each finger I tap when I get anxious.
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- 6y ago
Thanks so much guys! This was all really helpful. I’ve tried researching common compulsions but the main one that comes up is organising things! If anyone feels comfortable telling me how much time they spend on compulsions and how it’s affected their relationships (which is a plot point in my story) that would be super helpful but no pressure!
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- 6y ago
Oh, I spend hours! 3-8! The only people that are truly aware of my state is my family and it drives them insane. At one point they threatened to put me in a mental hospital because of how bad my anxiety was! It definitely hurt my friendships and relationships as well because of how often I put my compulsions before them. They don’t really know this though. They just assume that I’m very introverted. I can’t exactly open up either. How do I tell them about what’s bothering me when my obsessions are so unrealistic and irrational? I don’t want to sound crazy.
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- 6y ago
Are you asking for specific examples of the compulsions we engage in?
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- 6y ago
I probably spend 40 minutes out of the hour doing my compulsions mentally and physically
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- 6y ago
It’s the doubting disease.
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- 6y ago
I deal with contamination, checking, intrusive thoughts/harm ocd. As an example for checking I’ll check the front door before going to bed. I’ll turn the lock (in multiples of 3) and press on the door and repeat the word “lock” in my head. This can go on for awhile. Then I’ll usually stare at the door, and even though I can clearly see it’s locked it’s like my brain doesn’t believe it really is, there’s that constant “what if” in my head. As for relationships, for me it has the most impact on those I live with. It’s much easier to hide my symptoms from people when I’m only around them for chunks of time. I can tell that my compulsions can annoy my roommate even though I told them all about it before we decided to move in together. I think the compulsion that most affects my relationships is avoidance. I’ll avoid places and people, and because of my contamination ocd I’ll avoid things I view as “dirty” and end up leaving things around the apartment that I’m too afraid to touch Let me know if you want anymore info! Hope this helps!
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- 6y ago
I've been picking at and biting my fingers for as long as I could remember. It drives my bf crazy and when he's not around I don't even notice that I'm doing it until I'm bleeding everywhere. It really upsets me because I'm too embarrassed to show my hands to anyone. It takes a lot out of me to go to the nail salon because I feel like they're judging me. I have a regular lady that I go to now and she makes me feel pretty good and confident when I'm there and I feel a lot better once my nails are nice and pretty.
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- 11w ago
So, I know my capacity to get fixated on things. And it's normally something that's relatively remote but, my latest issue is really getting to me and I was wondering if people have any advice. I'm avoiding getting too into specifics, as I don't want this to get reassurance-y but, in essence.. I came to the realisation recently that people who I'd been "friends" (feels like the wrong term now) when I was younger were not very nice people, and normalized a lot of very unpleasant behaviour towards other members of the group. They really normalized it, sold themselves as figures of authority, as older and more responsible and grown-up than others, and looking back, they acted horribly. And coming to this realisation, that I'd been manipulated into just accepting their behaviour has just... broken me. My OCD has latched onto it and I can't stop feeling irreversibly tainted by it. I've talked to others about it, and they've reassured me, told me it's not a big deal and that I hold myself to too high a standard, but none of that sticks. I feel better for a bit, then think 'Maybe when you told them you were skewing it to make yourself look better' or 'Did you leave out a crucial detail'. I keep ruminating over and over, trying to remember exactly how everything played out, trying to figure out if I fed into the behaviour, if I did something bad myself (because y'know, I feel like I was accepting of it at the time, so what does it say about my own values?). I know I need to stop doing all this if I want to improve, but then some part of me keeps saying 'So, you're just going to let yourself off the hook then?' Normally, I can rationalize my own fears to some degree, assure myself something won't happen, but the realness of the situation, and the fact I only came to understand the reality of it because the thought had been bothering me means it feels so much more all-encompassing. I know confessing in itself is a compulsion, but I keep feeling that if I'm not I'm somehow concealing what I 'really am' from others around me, and any positive interactions are me deceiving them in some way. I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life right now, and a good part of me feels I should not enjoy it ever again. If anybody has any advice on it, I'm all ears. Or even hearing if you relate to these feelings, I might appreciate the solidarity at least.
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- 8w ago
This list by ai gives a good summary of my symptoms. Does it resemble OCD or is it something else? 1. Compulsions (OCD-specific behaviors): • Feeling the need to flex or contract muscles an even number of times, equally on both sides of your body. • Needing to reverse actions (for example, if you roll your eyes or trace a line with your finger, you feel compelled to do it again in the exact opposite way). 2. Intrusive Thoughts (OCD-specific ruminations): • Daydreaming about people you care about getting hurt (e.g., school shooting, injury, or kidnapping). • Sometimes feeling like you might want something bad to happen to someone you find attractive—possibly because of a desire to help or save them, though it’s confusing. • These thoughts can sometimes provide a twisted sense of relief while remaining distressing and confusing. 3. Sexual Orientation OCD: • Experiencing confusion or doubt about your sexual orientation. 4. Contamination Thoughts: • Feeling like things are contaminated, especially after touching something gross. 5. Sensory Compulsions: • Feeling the need to smell your hand after touching areas like your ear or hair. 6. ADHD-like Symptoms / Additional Observations: • Fidgeting or moving your legs when standing or sitting.
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- 7w ago
Has anyone experienced their reputation affected or misunderstood because of a societally taboo OCD theme? Others catching wind of your obsessions and misinterpreting it, assuming the worst? I’m intentionally keeping it vague because I don’t want my specific situation to get reassured, but it’s been a real tough pill to swallow knowing that people close to me (and anyone else they might talk to) think of me differently. I’m unwilling to share about my OCD because I feel pretty confident it will be taken as an excuse or denial, and feels compulsive and reassurance seeking. Let me know if anyone here has experienced anything like it, how they handled it, exposures you did.
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