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My main compulsion is checking. Especially self checking! I’m always checking to see if I’m aroused, my body for symptoms, my feelings about awful things like murder and rape etc. I also bite my skin as a nervous habit.
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I have intrusive thoughts, especially around religion and my faith. I constantly have to fight ‘bad’ thoughts. I repeat phrases in my head or keep good images almost on a continual basis. It’s like a script is always running in the background. I can hide it a lot unless my anxiety is really high, then I get ‘stuck’ and can’t move on until I get the thoughts right. It’s torturous and exhausting.
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Hey there, I am a checker, I pick at my fingers, I bite them, I write out random numbers because it feels good, and everything needs to turn in a clockwise motion.. What would you like to know about it?
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I’m also a checker/ reassurance finder. I ask the same question over and over to my close family/friends that know what I’m dealing with. I check my body for signs of arousal. I reread articles about the theme I’m dealing with. All these things take up most of my day.
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I also tap my pointer finger with my thumb down to my pinky counting 1 through 4 for each finger I tap when I get anxious.
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Thanks so much guys! This was all really helpful. I’ve tried researching common compulsions but the main one that comes up is organising things! If anyone feels comfortable telling me how much time they spend on compulsions and how it’s affected their relationships (which is a plot point in my story) that would be super helpful but no pressure!
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Oh, I spend hours! 3-8! The only people that are truly aware of my state is my family and it drives them insane. At one point they threatened to put me in a mental hospital because of how bad my anxiety was! It definitely hurt my friendships and relationships as well because of how often I put my compulsions before them. They don’t really know this though. They just assume that I’m very introverted. I can’t exactly open up either. How do I tell them about what’s bothering me when my obsessions are so unrealistic and irrational? I don’t want to sound crazy.
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Are you asking for specific examples of the compulsions we engage in?
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I probably spend 40 minutes out of the hour doing my compulsions mentally and physically
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It’s the doubting disease.
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I deal with contamination, checking, intrusive thoughts/harm ocd. As an example for checking I’ll check the front door before going to bed. I’ll turn the lock (in multiples of 3) and press on the door and repeat the word “lock” in my head. This can go on for awhile. Then I’ll usually stare at the door, and even though I can clearly see it’s locked it’s like my brain doesn’t believe it really is, there’s that constant “what if” in my head. As for relationships, for me it has the most impact on those I live with. It’s much easier to hide my symptoms from people when I’m only around them for chunks of time. I can tell that my compulsions can annoy my roommate even though I told them all about it before we decided to move in together. I think the compulsion that most affects my relationships is avoidance. I’ll avoid places and people, and because of my contamination ocd I’ll avoid things I view as “dirty” and end up leaving things around the apartment that I’m too afraid to touch Let me know if you want anymore info! Hope this helps!
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I've been picking at and biting my fingers for as long as I could remember. It drives my bf crazy and when he's not around I don't even notice that I'm doing it until I'm bleeding everywhere. It really upsets me because I'm too embarrassed to show my hands to anyone. It takes a lot out of me to go to the nail salon because I feel like they're judging me. I have a regular lady that I go to now and she makes me feel pretty good and confident when I'm there and I feel a lot better once my nails are nice and pretty.
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- 19w
Hello! I’m new here. Unfortunately I’m not able to afford a therapist but I’ve been doing a lot of research and I think a lot of my symptoms/thoughts align with OCD. I want to share some of what I experience and see if anyone else experiences the same and what resources helped you. I think I mostly experience contamination OCD. I’m constantly worried that something I do/touch is going to make me really sick and/or die. Especially with food, I’m constantly worried that I’ll accidentally have something on my hands when I eat, then I’ll touch the food and get that on the food, eat it and get sick. So I’ll wash my hands every time my hands touch any little tiny thing again and again before I eat, same with any forks/spoons, or I’ll even think I touched cleaner a few hours ago and I’ve washed my hands several times since then and I just washed them again but they still feel dirty so even if impractical I’ll use a fork and if my hands touch the part of the fork that touches the food then I can’t eat the food any longer or use that fork. Also at work I have these thoughts that I know are ridiculous but also give me very real anxiety. Like “if I don’t finish this order before that machine beeps its a sign I’m going to die” and then I have to rush to make sure I finish fast and then I’ll be like ok that’s so stressful I’m not going to think like that any more it’s ridiculous but then the thoughts keep coming back so I have to keep rushing. This is just a little tad bit of what I experience and I would love to hear from others as I haven’t met anyone else like me before. Thank you!
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I would like to raise awareness for an OCD subtype that is almost never talked about and is not included in the official OCD subtypes. This subtype includes obsessions about: 1. Thinking that something is wrong with your brain 2. Being convinced that you have forgotten how to think 3. Being convinced and paranoid that you have lost your inner voice 4. Being extremely afraid that you have lost the ability to feel 5. Being hyperaware of every thought, tracing it back to see how it occurred 6. Being convinced that something is wrong with you when something doesn’t go the way you expected it 7. Thinking that you are not thinking about it in the right way when trying to think your way out of it Compulsions include: 1. Mentally trying to figure it out 2. Trying to prove to your self that nothing is wrong with you 3. Putting your life at a stop until you figure it out 4. Excessive googling, using chat bots, reddit, researching, reading books & trying to find the missing piece of the puzzle I am sure there are other people who relate to this. This subtype isn’t mentioned anywhere and it’s really confusing for those experiencing it. Please, if you feel or think in a similar way like this post and reply in order to raise awareness.
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- 15w
hi everyone!! so idk if anyone will see this, but i guess i have a lot of questions. i got diagnosed with OCD about 2 years ago or so but i’ve had it for as long as i can remember. my obsessions and compulsions root from my worst fears and what i’m most afraid of losing. when i was really young, it started with doing things or else the devil was going to come and get me, because that was my worst fear at that time. i have to count, i usually do things in pairs of 3. i HATE even numbers. only odd numbers. sometimes i spend a lot of time redoing something over and over and over again just until it feels “right.” i have super bad sensory issues. i cut the tags out of everything i own, my nails have to be short or else i will dig them into my skin until i bleed because it just doesn’t feel right. at school i used to be late to class because i would be at my locker turning the combination either 3, 7, 9, 11, or 13 times. it just depended on what felt right. before i would go to bed i would have to sit up and check the door 3 , 7, 9… etc. one time i had to check 27 times before i could go to sleep. i’m actually scared of getting things i want in life because my OCD will hold it against me. “you better do this or else you’ll lose this.” the more happy i am in life, the worse my OCD gets. it prays on my worst fears. if there is even something slightly wrong with my clothes: a tiny thread hanging lose, a bad memory attached, i will never wear it again. there’s one thing im sorta embarrassed to say but it’s one of my worst ones. basically: peeing. at night, i have to continuously go to the bathroom over and over again because i feel like my bladder isn’t completely empty. i will keep telling myself “it’s full, i have to go.” even when i just peed 5 minutes ago. and due to this, it causes a lot of wiping. i have wiped myself raw to the point i bleed a lot. it’s embarrassing, but i can’t stop. it never feels clean enough. my hair is never perfect enough. my clothes are ugly. i think i mostly struggle with perfectionism OCD. but is that it? i also feel like if i don’t do certain things, it will cause something bad to happen to my family or friends. like i have magical control over events. i don’t know. can someone help please?
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