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- 6y
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- 6y
Okay so a few things BUT WELL DONE ON ERP: 1) don’t do it in a rush. ERP isn’t a sprint, it’s a marathon. If you do it quickly, it will fail 2) the ‘I’ll try that on a chick’ is a compulsion. Don’t compare. Just stare and let thoughts come in. 3) Arousal happens to any sexual stimulus gay or straight and has NO bearing on one’s sexual orientation.
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- 6y
Nicky310- thanks for the help but now I’m curious. Does that mean I have to refrain from jacking off because all my life I jacked off to women or porn that’s just how I get off but since I have HOCD that’s a compulsion now right? Because I’ve already stopped looking at porn because it’s a compulsion but I guess I should’ve asked my psychologist if I should stop jacking off thinking about sex with women even though that’s what I’ve always done in my life but it’s seems you know a lot about this stuff too so I just thought I ask you thanks.
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- 6y
I have a feeling that your thought of trying on a woman, is a form of distraction. It may not have been intentional but distraction can become avoidance.
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I know but I’ll try that on a chick was a thought that popped in seeing that it’s not like I was trying to think that but when I see that stuff I just start visualizing me with a chick not because I’m trying to suppress my thoughts but it just comes out of no where to where I start visualizing a chick like I can’t help it that’s just what’s started to happen though as I’m on day 4 of looking at pictures for erp and my psychologist said at first to just look at pictures of men but I told her that I was looking at naked dudes for my erp and she told me than to keep doing that until we meet again. My psychologist wants me to get my anxiety up again since I kind of messed myself up doing the self help on my own without any help so that’s where I’m at.
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- 6y
Of course no problems ! You’re doing sooo well! Yeah I think refraining from it is best because it can be a reassurance, but check with your therapist!
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- 24w
I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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- 23w
Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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- 14w
This shit has to be one of the most confusing subtypes of ocd because no matter what you will never find clarity. When it started it wasn’t as bad and confusing because it was mostly anxiety. But when it started getting physical that’s when it got extremely confusing because I feel tension and fear when thinking of gay stuff but while testing I get arousal sensations so the big question is “if I am afraid of it how can my body respond as if I’m into it and if I’m into it how does my body respond with fear as if I’m not” and it’s endless. I wish I never started testing my arousal so I never started getting groinals to gay stuff in the first place. But there’s no going back now.
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