guys ik this is seeking for reassurance but gay thoughts don’t disgust me anymore and they haven’t for a long time and whenever i read about people who do get disgusting by the thoughts i just want to cry i don’t want to be gay but my brain is telling me i do i’m freaking out and does anyone else’s false attractions and groinals feel so real?i feels like real denial

This is me

I feel jealous of girls who like guys as well. Feel like it is proof that I'm bi because why would I be jealous of them? Then I think what if you're that bi or lesbian girl who actually likes the girl and is jealous she likes boys and you want to be with her. Sorry if this is triggering just sharing my thoughts. It feels like it is what I'm feeling but it is all muddled right now.

@Lina I'm jealous of all the people around me. They are not obsessing with the thoughts that we're currentlu having.??

@trcyzennie That’s how I feel. I’m so jealous that people can enjoy attractions. Like when I think about a guy I feel comfortable and happy, but I feel like I get butterflies with girls and I HATE IT!! Do y’all feel like this?? And ya I get what you’re saying Lina. But then most lesbians don’t give two shits about liking guys they enjoy they’re attractions and we don’t. Also, Do you guys feel uncomfortable with the thought of kissing a girl and then you worry why you’re uncomfortable?? Like I guess I could do it but I would be so uncomfortable and just like no and then I would constantly wonder if I liked it and I just don’t wanna do that but I’m scared to kiss a guy in fear I won’t like it.

@hate_ocd.123 That's in my mind rn..?

@trcyzennie Yeah I can relate :(

YOU ARE?? such a relief that i’m not alone in this i really thought i was the exception and i’m staring to doubt my hocd i don’t have anxiety anymore

@stephb Me too, I can't sleep rn, I can't stop the obsessions..

@trcyzennie i just feel like constantly crying like i don’t obsess so much anymore i still get instructive thoughts but i’m able for the most part to easily dismiss them but the groinals and false attractions are still there so it makes me panic like what if i actually am in denial

@stephb There is still the what if, don't let OCD take over you! For me, i just had a wondeful spike last night, anf it made me cry so much. Then, my mother mentioned my friend. Another spike again, I felt this intrusions that I really hate! The obsessions lowered by now as well as the anxiety.. I still have the What ifs, but I know it's just OCD (maybe not). Just keep on accepting the thoughts and uncertainty!???

@trcyzennie Yep for me the groinals and feeling attracted it definitely the worse!!! I feel like I enjoy it but at the same time I can't accept it and keep thinking "what if I started dating a girl? What if I like it?". I guess it's hocd just being tricky with us, so yes, let's just accept the uncertainty. Hope you guys feel better ??