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- Fear Strikes Out
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- 4y ago
Also another thing that helped me was that my therapist said that she hears crazy things all the time and it’s her job to be able to handle it and help me.
You just answered my second question above. ?
@Fear Strikes Out Lmao yeah lol
I am just straight up I am like “hey I know this sounds insane and you’ve heard it before” but also I think that people have these thoughts all the time. Someone who is crazy won’t admit or be scared of having them!!
I knew sharing was the only way to start recovery. No matter bad my thoughts were (and they were horrible), I knew staying silent was not gonna help me. I started with my parents the day my onset started actually. It terrified me so bad that was the first thing I did. I didn’t end up starting therapy until a few months later because i thought I was dealing with a spiritual attack and not a mental health issue. At some point I was like okay, the problem is still here and I need professional help. I was very honest right away with the problem, because I knew hiding things wasn’t going to benefit me at all. I knew saying everything would help my therapist to understand what was going on and give me the right tools from the get-go to heal from these issues
I was very nervous to tell my therapist about my most distressing intrusive thoughts/theme, and I didn't talk about it until the 2nd or 3rd session. After going back and forth about the pros and cons, I decided that I needed to fully commit to the treatment plan to actually see results, and I wouldn't be doing so if I kept my greatest fears to myself. The OCD would still have its grip on me, and I would be worrying about not being honest with my therapist during sessions addressing less distressing obsessions.
I started with baby steps, first telling my best friend, then my therapist, then my counselor.
So, as you became more comfortable with your therapist, you felt more at ease to share? Did the therapist ever say anything like "There is probably nothing you could disclose about your intrusive thoughts that will likely shock me because I have heard just about every kind of intrusive thought."
@Fear Strikes Out She didn’t say anything about the intrusive thoughts because she is no a therapist for ocd which sucks but she told me that she’s heard all types of things and what I said doesn’t shock her and concern her because she’s heard a lot.
I think I told myself that if someone told about my troubles no matter how many times my ocd plays with me, at least in the bottom of my heart I know the truth about myself and that what other people think doesn’t matter because is know me and I know what I go through everyday. And it’s also confidential so therapists aren’t supposed to share anything unless they believe it’s a threat.
So I’ve had some anxiety crop up related to POCD this week. Intrusive thoughts, etc. it’s happened once before but I wasn’t educated on OCD then or seeing my therapist so I’ve never talked about it. I’m terrified to tell my therapist because I’m terrified of being reported. I’ve never done anything harmful or even WANTED to do anything harmful. I am NOT a danger and I know it! I just want help dealing with the thoughts but am scared to share in therapy. Anyone else experience this?
Does anyone feel guilty after therapy? I know I have experienced guilt after my therapy session and start obsessing on if I was talking too much or if I said something wrong? Does anyone feel embarrassed sometimes when they share what their OCD makes them do with compulsions? I know logically that there is nothing wrong with sharing in therapy, or being open and honest to receive help, but sometimes my OCD makes me question it and doubt myself, and I wanted to see if anyone could relate?
Hi everyone, I decided to join this app because I believe I need more support when it comes to being open about intrusive thoughts and how scary it can be to share them. Yesterday I had a therapy appointment and I decided to open up with her about a recent panic attack I had that followed with intrusive thoughts. I rarely experience them now or can mitigate the anxiety that comes from them because I am on medication, but I thought I wouldn’t be judged and felt comfortable opening up about them to my therapist. Following after that, she began to ask mandated reporter questions and I became scared because she seemed to think I would act on the thoughts I’ve had. So despite me opening up with her about them I feel like I can no longer share because people who have never experienced them think i would act on the intrusive thoughts, when in reality I know I would never and have avoided people, places, and things because of them. Intrusive thoughts are debilitating and cause people to question who they are and go into complete panic! And I guess I’m just frustrated because though there are people who understand it’s still very weird for others and it just saddens me.
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