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I have that all the time. I feel you, and I stand with you. We both have OCD. This sounds pretty typical of it. Message me if you want to talk :)
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All the time I did something that was basically a crime, I let my dog lick me down below as an adult, it started as a child, I guess I was re enacting childhood, god knows But I cant change what I did. I just know its it's something i am disgusted in and would never do again I do get scared to talk to a therapist but I've spoke to a doctor etc about it and I've never been reported. IIf its it's something you aren't currently acting on then I dont think they can report it as you aren't harming anyone or wanting to harm anyone And what you did was as a child
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I'm pretty sure we all do things we are not proud of But as long as you aren't doing anything now or wanting to harm anyone we need to learn to let go, I'm still struggling alot some days but I cant change what I did
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I'm suprised you didnt react to my comment ha Yeah this can happen, I sometimes wonder if I made my scenario up, like I remember a part of it but I cant remember days, times where exactly it happened and I always think when I look back like I wouldnt have just done this like what made me do that and think it was normal. Maybe its denial but I do question if my mind made it up or if it actually did happen and I just wish it didnt.
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Yeah, you want to talk about what happened, it cant be any worse than mine ha
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I think the issue with me is intense fear about if I would ever do it again and the uncertainty. One time I was on a guys trip about a year into my relationship and had a little too much to drink. we were at a bar and two girls were talking to us, one was talking to me in particular, told her I had a gf, she tried to give me her phone number, I didn’t take it, told her I was happy with my relationship, etc; the bar closed and us guys went back to the house and we invited them back. I was doing my best to maintain distance, I felt myself starting to get tired and brown out from drinking so I went in the bedroom to get into my boxers, that chick came in and I was telling her I had to go to bed and say bye without being too rude, have her a hug goodbye and she leaned in and kissed me or tried to kiss me. I flipped out about it and my buddy’s and I kicked them out and I went to sleep. The next day anxiety through the roof, couldn’t remember the night 100% so my head was spinning, felt like a criminal. Became paranoid the cops were going to arrest me. Then it just grew. Starting thinking about every bad thing I’ve ever done that never used to be an issue but now it was... now whenever I talk to the opposit sex I get intrusive sexual thoughts, mentally review conversations to make sure I didn’t say anything to make them think I was attracted to them, worry that they may run into my wife someday and say I’m a bad person for flirting, even though I wasn’t, etc... I told my now wife about the incident the day after it happened and she was pissed a little bit. But ultimately forgave me and didn’t care, but I still obsessed about it. The feeling that I’m a bad terrible person felt and still feels real and has really shrunk my life down in a bad way
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I'm struggling with pocd it feels very real and I'm at a point where I feel I need to go to confess to the police stuff I know I haven't done but have false memories of doing and I feel like nobody thinks like this and very alone.
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I struggle with looking back at a past social media interaction and thinking catastrophically. It’s the worst because I’ve deleted my account and can’t go back and check.. which of course my OCD wants to do. It gets to the point where I’m scared something is going to come out and I’ll get arrested one day. It’s so scary! I feel like I don’t know what’s real and what’s not anymore.
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17f I have a lot of events, but my main and my worst one which is absolutely fucking diabolical was done when I was 14 and repeated when I was 16. Everytime I post something about real event ocd here people are like you are probably didn't do anything that bad, and when they hear what I did they are like yeah that's bad. Someone even asked me if I'm autistic cause "it's crazy how you didn't realize that the thing ypu were doing was wrong at this age." And I kinda agree, like it's fucked up It's just that my event is bad. Doesn't mean I don't have real event ocd. You can have a reocd over the event that was bad, it doesn't mean the event wasn't that bad or you don't have recod. It's just people always expect it to be something innocent and it's not Even a healthy person would feel guilty over it, it's just that I had ocd my whole life and it's making the guilt absolutely destructive, like to the point when I sometimes have a hard time breathing when I think about it, I lost more than a year of life to it, almost checked myself out couple of times if I wasn't so scared of pain/failure, the event haunts me in my dreams, it's in my head 24/7 and I will never able to forgive myself. That ocd. But the event itself was bad. So maybe i deserve it.
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