Anyone else feel like a criminal with their real event ocd :( if my event is reportable I'll really feel like I need to be locked up

I have that all the time. I feel you, and I stand with you. We both have OCD. This sounds pretty typical of it. Message me if you want to talk :)

All the time I did something that was basically a crime, I let my dog lick me down below as an adult, it started as a child, I guess I was re enacting childhood, god knows But I cant change what I did. I just know its it's something i am disgusted in and would never do again I do get scared to talk to a therapist but I've spoke to a doctor etc about it and I've never been reported. IIf its it's something you aren't currently acting on then I dont think they can report it as you aren't harming anyone or wanting to harm anyone And what you did was as a child

I'm pretty sure we all do things we are not proud of But as long as you aren't doing anything now or wanting to harm anyone we need to learn to let go, I'm still struggling alot some days but I cant change what I did

I'm suprised you didnt react to my comment ha Yeah this can happen, I sometimes wonder if I made my scenario up, like I remember a part of it but I cant remember days, times where exactly it happened and I always think when I look back like I wouldnt have just done this like what made me do that and think it was normal. Maybe its denial but I do question if my mind made it up or if it actually did happen and I just wish it didnt.

Yeah, you want to talk about what happened, it cant be any worse than mine ha

I think the issue with me is intense fear about if I would ever do it again and the uncertainty. One time I was on a guys trip about a year into my relationship and had a little too much to drink. we were at a bar and two girls were talking to us, one was talking to me in particular, told her I had a gf, she tried to give me her phone number, I didn’t take it, told her I was happy with my relationship, etc; the bar closed and us guys went back to the house and we invited them back. I was doing my best to maintain distance, I felt myself starting to get tired and brown out from drinking so I went in the bedroom to get into my boxers, that chick came in and I was telling her I had to go to bed and say bye without being too rude, have her a hug goodbye and she leaned in and kissed me or tried to kiss me. I flipped out about it and my buddy’s and I kicked them out and I went to sleep. The next day anxiety through the roof, couldn’t remember the night 100% so my head was spinning, felt like a criminal. Became paranoid the cops were going to arrest me. Then it just grew. Starting thinking about every bad thing I’ve ever done that never used to be an issue but now it was... now whenever I talk to the opposit sex I get intrusive sexual thoughts, mentally review conversations to make sure I didn’t say anything to make them think I was attracted to them, worry that they may run into my wife someday and say I’m a bad person for flirting, even though I wasn’t, etc... I told my now wife about the incident the day after it happened and she was pissed a little bit. But ultimately forgave me and didn’t care, but I still obsessed about it. The feeling that I’m a bad terrible person felt and still feels real and has really shrunk my life down in a bad way