Just remembered another real event that happened!! I hate it!! :) when I was about 11 I let a dog lick my genitals?? I feel so disgusting what the fuck is wrong with me...

Wow, that's messed up!!!! V V V V V V V V V If my AGREEING with you made you more mad/sad/scared, and you're like "what the heck Katie? You're supposed to tell me it's no big deal!", then it's safe to assume the purpose of this post was to get reassurance

I’ve actually realised quite a few people have done this as a kid and then their OCD has later latched onto it. All I can say is you were a kid. Kids do shit! And you can spend all your time looking back at it and wishing to change it, or you can move forward with this new understanding and live life with your current values?

I done this as an adult and it's what caused my real ocd event. It's something I find very difficult to deal with. It's only just started to bother me the past 2 month and I think why didnt this bother me when I was doing it like how did I think it was so normal

Me too x Seriously though you were a child I still believe I was abused by a neighbour when I was younger which affected me somehow I think we just deal with things in our own weird way It just takes us a while to realise there not what firs with our morals today x

Yeah I always think because I'm an adult it makes me worse We both know we aren't bad people like I know completely what your going through What we did was pretty gross and most people probably wouldnt get it but that's why I think we just have to accept that we did something without really thinking But now we have learnt from it x

Idk if you’re still active but I wanted for you to know that you’re not alone. I’ve basically did the same thing around that age. I’m still pretty haunted by that but only recently learned that what I was experiencing was real event OCD. It took awhile to see that child’s play and exploration is not as uncommon as we think. Sure, maybe we should have known better at the time but as children we just didn’t. Maybe it wouldve been different if we were taught or educated better but then again maybe not. What’s important is that we both understand now in the present that it was wrong. It’s tricky too, the uncertainty of it all. But I think it’s important to factor in that we were literally children. If I heard of someone doing something similar, I wouldn’t act disgusted. I’d be grateful that you realized it was wrong and stopped. Regardless, it’s important to remember to be kind to yourself. And self-compassion is something I’m still learning. Still compulsive that I searched similar situations on this app, but I’m still learning ya know. Hope youre doing well out there!