So I am slowly, slowly accepting this but I'm struggling. When i used to watch porn i came across lots of daddy-teen type roleplay themes in porn. I remember role play scenes of like "step dad" or "mums boyfriend" and things of that nature. I am aware it was acting between adults and everything is consensual, but there is still an unethical nature to roleplaying such fantasies in my opinion, things like sneaking into her room etc. I really do get that it's fake, but it doesn't seem right to me to allow fantasies like that to exist. I have a problem coping with memories of scenes like this that I saw in the past. I dont even watch porn anymore, I havent in like 2 years. I also remember some scenes with what seemed like men filming with prostitutes, and I cant help but wonder if the women had all the rights that a porn actress would have? What if they didn't? What if they didnt sign contracts etc before? I know I'm thinking far too deeply into it. This is why I find porn a disgusting industry, and I'm sad that as a young teenager I found porn and regularly went on it, because it's so unethical and I feel that I'll never be able to wipe the shame of it away. Memories of these kinds make me ruminate. There is no clear answer, I cannot be sure of anything so all I feel is shame and ruminate feeling like a bad person for ever viewing porn in the first place.

You're right, it's in the past. Also, it's not really out of the norm either to come across porn like that. Porn is filled with such stuff. I just wish OCD didn't grasp onto it like this.

@MJocd Yeah, I actually spoke to my therapist about this yesterday. She tried telling me about it being things like fake and fantasy etc. and that it doesn’t mean it’s reality. And yet I do see the arguments still. And ocd loves to latch onto that. She also said a lot of my ocd themes seem to deal with sexuality/sexual nature. It does suck that OCD latches onto these things because they’re some of the most taboo in our society, but we must do our best to sit with the discomfort, because anyone else wouldn’t obsess about it like people with ocd do.

@Mars I got into an argument actually with someone else on another forum because she was arguing for DDLG relationships and, I couldn't help but say that I found the idea immoral and unethical, even if it is between consenting adults. I think my OCD was doing the talking for me though, because people without ocd might not really care about such roleplaying themes.

@MJocd Yeah, it’s definitely hard and I too struggle with things like that. Especially with things like ddlg. I age regress and I hate ddlg because they sexualize regression. But I’m sure others wouldn’t care. But I also have friends who would argue fiction does effect reality and they don’t have ocd. So it’s definitely a confusing battle.

Yes, probably but I've built this ethical foundation since my moral scrupulosity started and I cant fathom exposing myself to porn again with all those underlying worries I have about porn (and the reasons I stopped watching it in the first place). Like what if it isnt consensual? What if the actors are underage? What if I come across something illegal on these legal mainstream sites. I know the likelihood is low, ofc it is low, millions of people watch porn every single day and porn is a massive industry but for me, I can't expose myself to it because I find it deeply unethical..

@MJocd And that is precisely the reason to do it. Read about ERP and that is effectively the resolution if done properly. But if not then you need to speak to a therapist for an alternative option. M