I have a very strong obsession of wanting everything I do(even though I am doing it privately and no one is watching,everything I think of to be known and recognized by every people I know and people I see as I pass by.and as a solution since this thing isn't realistic my mind start to think about not doing anything usefull when get severe to the extent of not eating so that to make sure I did noting not recognized by others.as u can guess this thing is making my life a mess.can anyone help me??

My obsession is that I want everything I think and do, no matter how ordinary it is and nomatter there is noway for it to be real,to be known by everyone on earth.my compulsions are nowhere near to explaining what I am thinking or telling what I did so that it can be known but telling my self It is totally illogical and hurting me as hell so I should stop it at the beginning.now after about 4 years,totally ruined highschool my mind is stopping doing or thinking any thing so that I make sure anything done isnnt let unknown by others.

@daniel12 Good :) those are the core parts of the OCD cycle. The obsession is "if no one sees it, how can I be sure it's real" and the compulsions are delaying activities until you have company and talking through all your internal experiences. What is the emotion that arises if you don't do the compulsions? And what body sensations accompany it?

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I fell really anxious. that damn thought come to me like a flood .sweet will cover all of my body.and I say to myself Superanxiously that the goal to life is nowhere near to being able to let every one u see read ur mind and ur past in a second and make sure they will appreciate it but to do good in school make a positive mark on life's of others and having privacy.

@daniel12 What would it be like to say "ok, maybe it's not real. I'm going to do things anyway"?

@NOCD Advocate - Katie Making sure whether things are real or not isn't the main problem even though I fell so sometimes. The main problem is the illogical need that all my thoughts even though I don't speak them and every actions even though I do them in private must be known and appreciated by everyone.or else there is no meaning in doing things if other people don't know I am doing them.

@daniel12 Ok, thanks for clarifying. ERP would involve intentionally doing things that are "meaningless" because no one sees them. "I'm going to eat a meaningless lunch" I'm going to read this book. Who cares if it's meaningless"

@NOCD Advocate - Katie Should I have to think intentionally that things I do are "meaningless"while the thought doesn't come by it?

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I mean for example I take care of my self while crossing a road but I don't have a stronh obsession that says"no one knows u are taking care of ur self while crossing the road so u should stop taking care".should I intentionally think that taking care while crossing a road is meaning less but I am gonna do it anyway ?even though the thought doesn't come by itself sometimes

I forget this..it gets more intense in occasions I believe important and needs a fast and logical thinking.for eg. Exam halls,talking someone important

@daniel12 Response Prevention (in your case, doing things) is something to strive for all the time. Planned exposure is recommended to do roughly an hour a day

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I would like to thank u very much.i'm sure applying this would help me become a well functioning man.

Alright. Then you have a choice. You can continue the conversation and show OCD that it isn't in charge, or you can end the conversation and make OCD stronger next time

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I chose to continue the conversation?