Do you ever feel like your mind is making you turn gay? Like it’s just so odd that during this time in my life is when I started to question. Never felt anything towards women in the slightest, but my mind all of a sudden is almost forcing me to do it. At first, I knew what I wanted (which was men) and could fight off the thoughts. But now it’s to the point where I really do feel like in order to be happy I have to enter a lesbian relationship. I would think if I were truly gay this would make me happy, but I almost feel indifferent to it. Idk why this happened to me and I wish that I had figured it out sooner because I just don’t want to stop giving up on men. If I had this when I was younger I might have been okay with it but fantasizing about men has always been a fun topic for me. It’s just typical for this shit to happen to me because I have the worst luck in the world, and of course my OCD and anxiety ruined one thing that made me happy