It's telling me if I don't like my guy friend, then it must be a sign. He liked me in the past, but I never returned the feelings because he's kinda of a jerk and he has made me uncomfortable countless times. Also, he isn't "good-looking" and my OCD tells me that "I don't like him because of his looks so it means that I only like guys for their looks." Although looks fo contribute to attraction, I don't like his personality, knowing how unloyal he has been to his exes. I'm really lost with this HOCD thing. I feel so uncomfortable and paranoid when I talk to my female and male friends :/

When a guy texts me, my brain automatically start saying that "if i don't like them, it's a sign." Like, why can't I talk to my friends without these freaking feelings and stuff. I'm so confused, it feels honestly so real. These OCD tricks.... idek anymore :/

@stars I feel what you’re saying , but you have to have hope , if you don’t then it causes me anxiety hehe

@That1girl I don't even have physical anxiety lol

@stars If you’re worried then it counts as anxiety in a way ? You’re obviously distressed

@stars Same sometimes I feel I'm accepting it. Maybe most of the time I feel like that.

@That1girl I do worry so much!! I wished I had physical anxiety though. I do, but only when I'm having an anxiety/panic attack. Usually, I wake up feeling like I've been compressed but that's it lol

Omg, I'm so sorry!!! I honestly don't remember how my thoughts appeared but it was at night when I was on my phone

@stars I was also on my phone. Btw o never was in a relationship. It's just unrequited. I have a horrible self esteem

@brokenstrong Ugh igy!! I've never been in a relationship either, but liked these guys that never had feelings for me

@stars Yeah hocd sucks right!

@brokenstrong I have a fear of dating due to low-esteem and the fear of not liking someone back... i'm a bit picky but of course, OCD uses that against me. Anyways, I hope you feel better :)

@stars Same here, I hope you feel better too! I'm always here to talk :)

@brokenstrong Yeah!! Oh, does ur ocd tell u that u never actually liked them and it tries convince you that you never liked guys in the first place and u were forced to?

@stars Exactlyyy that. It says I crushed on guys because of "stereotypical society norms"

@brokenstrong Same, and the worst part of this is barley ruminate or get triggered anymore :/ So it feels even more real

@stars Same I don't get anxiety too these days.

@stars trigger warning: Does it feel like you are okay to live with a girl as well?

@brokenstrong I think so .... like i get thoughts about wanting to be with one, but it also tells me that i don't want to be with a a boy.

@stars I can understand. My theme is this - you need marriage for emotional security and whatever. But if all guys have done in your life is sexual abuse and emotional abuse, why would you want a guy?

@brokenstrong I'm so sorry, that must be so hard but I believe you can handle it!!

@stars I hope we get out of it ??

@brokenstrong I'm scared that I'll get out of it and then I'll feel unsolved and realize something smh

@stars Nothing wrong should happen