I really need help I just read an article saying that people think HOCD isn’t a real thing. Have people actually recovered from this? What if it’s just internalised homophobia? I don’t want to be with girls it’s so distressing I just want all the thoughts and constant questioning to stop I feel like I can’t live him life properly anymore I just want to be happy and back to my usual self I feel like I can’t enjoy anything anymore.

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i wouldn’t say so

@louise4812 I mean if it was found on a random website or like Reddit, I truly wouldn’t put much stock into it. Anyone can post anything

@wellwellwell it wasn’t redit it was a proper like article which looked to be written by a psychologist or something liek that basically arguing both points but concluded on that it was just internalised homophobia

@louise4812 Do you know what website it was?

@wellwellwell hornet.com

@louise4812 Okay so this was written by a member of the LGBTQ community. It is very possible that they are viewing there own experiences with internalized homophobia, and with a misunderstanding of HOCD, conflating the two. They are very different, but I could see how someone from the gay community wouldn’t understand and think it was denial. It’s like someone who doesn’t have ocd thinking people with POCD are pedophiles. I would really stay off the internet. It does not help.

@wellwellwell *their

@wellwellwell yeh it really doesn’t constantly reading and looking up stuff is one of my biggest compulsions do you think if i like blocked myself from the internet it would help?

@louise4812 If you need to do that for now, I get it. I deleted Reddit off my phone until I knew I was able to resist compulsions.

@wellwellwell yeh reddit is definitely an unhealthy place i just need to block myself from Safari

@louise4812 Are you in therapy?

@wellwellwell i’ve just started with my psychologist i’ve only had 2 sessions but i haven’t had him this week as he’s having a week off we haven’t even got onto talking about hocd yet. I’m scared to tell him tho

@louise4812 Don’t be afraid. This is how you get better.

@wellwellwell how do i go about bringing it up i feel like everytime i try and explain to someone how i feel it’s like i am trying to justify myself or like persuade myself uno even tho i don’t think i am

@louise4812 Could you write it down and have him read it?

@wellwellwell i struggle with bfrbs aswell

@louise4812 What is that?

@wellwellwell that’s what I thought to do maybe as I’m not seeing him to write it in a text or something and say it’s something really bothering me and I wasn’t sure how to bring it up or something and it’s over skype atm

@wellwellwell body focused repetitive behaviours

@louise4812 That sounds like it could be helpful. Or write it beforehand and read directly off the paper

@wellwellwell yeh i will give it a go

@louise4812 This is me.

@takingmylifeback i can’t stop looking stuff up

@louise4812 Do it. Yes you can. It’s the only way to beat this