Can I talk to someone please? I'm anxious and very scared rn :(

Thank you sis!! Can you just keep me company for a while? I just don't feel very good right now. I can't stop worrying that I'm actually bi or gay. Like the thought of being sexual or romantic with a girl is making my lower body tense but for some reason in my chest it feels like I like it but physically I'm just so distressed. Though I'm trying to sit with the anxiety, I can't stop worrying I'm masculine and that I've been gay all along. I can't imagine guys sexually anymore and I feel like I'm in comphet or internalized homophobia.

@sanzida? Aw I’m sorry. :( Well to me, if you were, you would definitely know it. The fact that it bothers you so much is most like ocd. I’ve struggled with hocd too. But I’m always here if you need a friend, and you’re not alone! Maybe try occupying yourself with other activities you enjoy ❤️

@erikaxo Awwww thank you soo much ?. Im doing my homework and obsessing about another obsession instead of homo OCD and I feel okay rn. But I took a small one hour nap today and i woke up having this tight feeling in my chest and it really fast like I was gay :(. It still feels true but I'm sitting and ignoring the feeling

@sanzida? Naps are the best haha but I’ve found out that trying to stop thinking about it makes it worse actually. Maybe we just have to accept it and sit with that, I’m not sure. But to me, if it was something that was true, you would have known it for a while and it wouldn’t bother you so much! Wishing you the best ❤️

@erikaxo Yeah that's true and idk about the last bit sis :(. My hocd friend told me that people in comphet apparently do NOT know that they are LGBT and I'm scared I'm LGBT too and just that I've never known. I just want men like I wanted them when I was a toddler [saying that feels like such a lie but everything boils down to me only wanting them]. I'm very scared of topics of comphet, internalised homophobia etc. I'm so scared, I've tried ERP twice but everytime I'd relapse midway, now I'm scared to do it again cause I feel like it will end up as being LGBT :(((

@sanzida? Hm, I’m not too knowledgeable about that. I just think that your ocd is just making you worry 10x more than you need to. I watched this video today on YouTube. Maybe it would help! https://youtu.be/laeYq51SYA0

@erikaxo Aww thank you so much for the link!!! :)))

@sanzida? Of course!!

Sis!! I remember the girls I wanted to be friends with, and rn they feel like they were all crushes. I also can't have a crush on a guy and I also don't get happy at the romantic and sexual thoughts abou them anymore. I fee like I'm in comphet without my good feeling for guys!!

@sanzida? I go through this too! It can feel like you are drowning in those thoughts sometimes but you are not alone! The thing about OCD is it loves to cling to doubt, if you have any incling of doubt it’ll attack it! Now I can’t reassure you but trust me you can fight this. ?

@ocdbyebye Thank you guys so so much!!! I've been feeling way better than before after I talked to my friends ?

Omg you have the same name as my friend on this app ahahaha ?

@sanzida? it’s still me hahaha i jusy removed the emoji lmao

@princess Ohhhhh

@sanzida? hahahha