When I was around 13 I remember putting black nylons over my face and making "comedic" videos. I hate myself for doing that. Absolutely hate myself. How could I have done that? How do I move on from that? It's been five years, I've grown from it, but I still feel bad. It was racist, but does it make me still racist?:(

Thank you for your kind words. I do greatly feel bad for it-- as you know, with ocd it can be hard to accept mistakes from the past, and with cancel culture going on I just feel terrible about what I did :(

You're very right. Ocd certainly doesnt make it more easy to forgive ourselves, but I'll try.

Thank you. As I mentioned above, I see people canceling celebrities for their racist past and it just makes me question if I should be treated like that too.

@worryqueen Cancel culture is stupid because people grow and change. Dont let you're OCD feed off this stupid trend x

@MJocd True, I find it harmful. I guess I'm concerned over others opinions of me as well as my own.

@worryqueen Cancel culture scares me too. Even as a minority I recognize that I’ve done or said not okay things when I was younger regarding other groups and I feel terrible about it. Cancel culture scares me for that reason. Like I did something bad in the past too so should I be cancelled? It’s a lot.

@imokay Yeah exactly. I feel like we let social media and the people on it dictate whether we're good or bad. It's very unhealthy. My therapist has been working with me to accept the gray area of life. We are neither good nor bad. We dictate if we're good or bad, just us. No one else has that power over us. I hope we can both learn to love ourselves.

@worryqueen I’ve been struggling with this as of late too. My friend says “cancel culture isn’t real” and that it’s normally deserved and that it’s genuine criticism which I understand to an extent but cancel culture I think really is there and hurts people. There’s a lot I struggle with this fear of things I’ve done or things I’ve heard or even just heard my friends say and I constantly obsess. My therapist is also working on this with me and it’s a lot of work but.. you’ll get there eventually. I know the fears bc I don’t want to be “cancelled” and I have a growing following for my own stuff so it terrifies me. I don’t wanna hurt others or be a bad person. And it sucks! I think people need to realize we’re all human and make mistakes, it’s just how we go about fixing them that counts.

@Mars I definitely agree. How we go about changing ourselves and addressing our mistakes is the most important. I just feel like I need the whole world's approval, and it's annoying because I can never accomplish that.

@worryqueen Yes I constantly try to seek everyone’s approval and I’m always worried about how people perceive me. It sucks. I try not to but it’s hard.

@worryqueen I get that. I’ve made so many mistakes and feel I need the approval of the world as well. I feel like my own friends if they found out my mistakes they would hate me and it terrifies me and I have so much imposter syndrome.

@imokay Same. It's hard not to try to seek others approval. Our ocd wants us to be perfect but that's impossible. .

@worryqueen Yeah... my therapist told me today that no one has to know everything About you. But with how I see so much cancel culture stuff on twitter and around my friend group it really makes me want to confess every sin. It leads into pocd, harm ocd, all this and that.

@Mars My therapist said the same. Wish I could listen. In the end we're own judge. Our ocd makes us dependent on the approval of others and it's unhealthy, but I get it. I hate that's what I need.

@worryqueen You’re right, for a long time I’ve stopped feeling safe. And I dunno it’s very isolating bc I don’t have much of a support system in my life. It’s really hard to explain.

@Mars Yeah I get what you mean. Having a support system can help you, but for some people it doesnt exist at all. Just remember you have a loving community to back you up. We are all understanding and caring :)

@worryqueen I appreciate it, I love this app for that reason. It’s hard and so isolating bc of not having a support system a lot so this app has been a big help in that aspect!

@Mars Same, no one I know irl understands my disorder but it's nice the people on here do :)

@worryqueen Yeah! Same! I have friends irl who have ocd but don’t even realize there’s subtypes like pocd so it’s definitely hard to talk about so I normally don’t. But I’m glad the community is here and understands.

@Mars I'm sorry, that sucks. At least we have the community, yes!! It's something I will always be happy with.