princess🧚🏼♀️
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RaiyanRaiyan
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I heard a news just right now. That a man married another man in womens' clothing and got caught. This made me sympathetic towards him. This sympathy caused me to question myself again, that the same might happen to me and i might be gay. Its fucking frustrating and scary. By the way I live in Bangladesh. People here are both liberal towards homosexuality or any other sexualities besides heterosexual.
princess🧚🏼♀️princess🧚🏼♀️
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It is completely normal to empathize with them. It is normal to be an ally to the lgbtq but not part of the community. It has nothing to do with your sexuality
RaiyanRaiyan
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I am facing the same problem. My hocd is at a level where its is barely manageable. If you want someone to take to, I am all ears. Maybe discussing each other's problems might provide some relief for both of us.
princess🧚🏼♀️princess🧚🏼♀️
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thank you so much :) same goes to u ! Thank God I calmed down now haha, but I still have so much doubt. I’m just scared I have internalized homophobia and this is the reason why I can’t really imagine myself with a woman. Literally both of my best friends came out as bisexuals last night, at the peak of my hocd, the timing is hilarious hahah. And they told me to watch a lesbian scene from a movie to see how I feel. I’m scared that I actually liked it, like what if I enjoyed it but my internalized homophobia is stopping me ? I felt so awful after watching that ugh. I’m so sorry for ranting hahha. please feel free to also rant ?I really wanna help
RaiyanRaiyan
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I know, but a faulty brain can turn everything upside down in a flash. If you do not mind please tell me about your story on how you develop ocd in such a bizzare form
princess🧚🏼♀️princess🧚🏼♀️
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well it started in october last year when my best friend came out as bisexual. that night i kept thinking « omg what if i was also bi this entire time but didn’t know it ?? ». i couldnt sleeo that entire night. but then i got over it. a couple of days later i started questioning « what if i am gay ? » and here again i’d have sleepless nights. Then because of school and so much work i got a but distracted. but since quarantine started it has been such an intense fear of turning bisexual. and two days ago it switched to being gay again :/
RaiyanRaiyan
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How are you dealing with this?
princess🧚🏼♀️princess🧚🏼♀️
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honestly i’m just trying to stay strong and have some patience. i will try to stop arguing, analyzing, ruminating on the thoughts and sit with the anxiety. i have tried this last week, and noticed the anxiety levels drop, but when my friends came out as bi last night i relapsed and my anxiety spiked :(
princess🧚🏼♀️princess🧚🏼♀️
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how about u ? how did it start
RaiyanRaiyan
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Well mine started with porn. I have been a porn addict for several years. Watched almost every sort of porn there is. Then for the last 7 months, I wasnt satisfied with normal porn and started looking at trans pornography and gay pornography. One thing led to the next, and I started questioning the little things about why I looked at these types of porn. Then all of a sudden hocd
princess🧚🏼♀️princess🧚🏼♀️
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i’m sorry :(
RaiyanRaiyan
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Thankyou for listening. If it was possible to remove the brain and hit it left and right, I would be the first to volunteer
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