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- 7y
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Christian, what do you mean by “there is never going to be any definitive proof that I am not going mad”? Okay, here’s the thing. If you were truly going mad, you wouldn’t even be aware that you were going mad. The fact that you have awareness that you could be going mad, is in fact proof that you are not, indeed, going mad. Hope that makes sense ?
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- 7y
I get a similar thing. I am terrified of developing schizophrenia. PTW I sometimes have to spell OCD but the full version forwards and backwards and than forwards again to make sure that I get OCD and not schizophrenia even though I know that that has no rational connection. Going over your thoughts and if you match the symptoms of schizophrenia will only make it worse(trust me I know more easily said than done) but try to stay away from googling symptoms because I know that once I got a handle on that things got a bit easier
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- 7y
I don’t have these specific intrusive thoughts, but I understand what you mean when you say that you’re life is great, but you can’t enjoy it because of ocd! My advice: Keep doing the things you love. When you have ocd, it can make you fear and avoid doing the things that comfort you, and can try to turn everything against you. I hope you feel bettet
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- 7y
Thank you so much for sharing your story. Have you ever told your symptoms to an OCD specialist?
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- 7y
@Pineapple Thank you! Definitely appreciate that. I suppose the lack of “definitive proof” comes in when I think about philosophy and how we will never actually know others perception or the nature of reality. It’s the age old thing of “I think therefor I am” but my OCD sends that to degrees that haunt and unsettle me. I need to just have faith in my relationships and in the now but my OCD certainly loves to make me question existence typically when everything seems to be going great for me.
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- 7y
Hey @christian you mention that life is going amazingly for you. Do you take sometime everyday to reflect on that? I recently heard from my friend that she writes ten things she’s grateful for every morning and it’s something I’m hoping to do as well.
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- 7y
@ily9k I definitely should implement that into my morning routine. Thank you for the advice!
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- 7y
@Mjs110160 I have never been to an OCD specialist but I am currently in therapy and doing CBT.
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- 24w
My last and almost life long theme/sub-theme largely subsided recently and my ocd felt like it wasn’t even an issue. Then I went on winter break from uni and being alone made my mind come up with a whole new topic to obsess over. TLDR on my fears, my advisor wouldn’t email me back for a while about signing up for classes so my mind started to worry “what if he doesn’t in time and you can’t enroll this semester and you lose this whole life you just built and all these new friends” So when that issue was resolved my mind found other scarier ways I could be uprooted from my current life and friends that I’ve grown so attached to. Then my mind remembered back when I was struggling with false memories and scrupulosity and I essentially made a post on a forum 2 and a half years ago saying I did something or was convinced I did something that I never actually did. Now I’ve been spiraling about someone finding it reporting me and I either get seen as a horrible person or arrested or something over something I never actually did but “admitted” to out of fear of going to hell. My mind won’t let it go and keeps finding new reasons for it to be “valid” “logical” or even inevitable. I feel like it’s just hanging over my head and I can never rest easy. Especially when I try to focus on my daily tasks or plan for the future I get this horrible flair up of “why plan for the future when this could come back in that future and you get uprooted from all of it” my mind won’t rest without certainty being uprooted won’t happen but certainty doesn’t exist, at least not with ocd. This sucks and I miss being care free.
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- 21w
I started dealing with OCD when I became fixated on health issues, particularly the fear of contracting a life-threatening disease. If I experienced any kind of medical symptom, no matter how small, that even remotely hinted at something potentially fatal, it would drive me crazy, and I couldn’t stop obsessing over it. Then one day, I started having intrusive thoughts about accidentally hitting someone with my car, and I would end up driving in circles to check if I had. Eventually, I found myself overwhelmed by a flood of new obsessive thoughts and compulsions. One day, while I was at the park, a squirrel came near me, and for some reason, I felt like it attacked me. I Googled it and learned that squirrels could carry rabies, which spiraled me into a deep fear of rabies. I became consumed with the thought I received a bite from a squirrel, raccoon, or bat any time I’m in areas that trigger me. It started off only being inside then transferred to even being in my own home. This made me obsess over every physical sensation in my body, compulsively checking to make sure nothing was wrong. One compulsion that I hated the most would to be putting rubbing alcohol on me to make sure that I had no open wounds. Every day feels like I’m walking around in a fog of anxiety, constantly worrying that I won’t even make it to old age. Sometimes, it gets so overwhelming that I just want it all to end. It stresses me so bad at times to where my brain feels like I’ve been studying all day.
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- 20w
Hi guys! I’m new to the community and I’ve recently received my OCD diagnosis (tho I’ve known about it since childhood). I’ve been somewhat spiraling lately as I wait for my first ERP session (hooray!) I was just wondering if any of you guys have received ERP for existential OCD and if it was successful? My existential OCD compulsions are more so mental and have been affecting me in the sense of dream/memory flashbacks and giving me a sort of “uncanny” feeling about everything around me. Any advice is appreciated! Thank you❤️
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