When in my mind I’m saying things like « no, I don’t want this intrusive thoughts, I don’t agree to it », in the same time there is another voice which says me « yes you want this thoughts, you wanna act like that, there’s nothing wrong with it ». Like angel and devil talking. I’m so lost, which voice trusting ? I have pocd but I think it can talk to many ocd themes. Don’t wan’t reassurance but, any advice for this ?

I’m battling with this at the moment constantly questioning my thoughts. An intrusive thought happens and I’ll automatically think NO and shake my head but then question if I actually mean no ??‍♀️ sometimes I get a thought and don’t get as much anxiety as I usually do and then think well, if I’m not get anxiety it must be a bad thing. It’s a viscous circle. I get mental compulsions too because of it. I guess deep down we all know it’s OCD but the joy of having it is that it will always make us feel we are what we fear and part of our mind is stuck always stuck there.

Accept the voice that tells you that you want it, the more you suppress it the more the thoughts will come to you anyway, by accepting it you eventually learn to not approach the thoughts with fear and your mind will slowly stop obsessing

You’re on the right track with angel and devil talking. Ultimately it’s not to listen to either but to merely accept that they’re there. They show up, start blabbing, and you can simply say oh hi and acknowledge their existance and move on. It really just comes down to you. Trust YOUR voice. I started treatment recently and find myself talking out loud when an intrusive thought comes into my head. I’m like “it’s just a thought. It’s here and that’s okay.”