Makki23
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- 5y
ejhejh
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- 5y
Depersonalization is very common with OCD. I dealt with it for a while but am getting better slowly. It will make you feel completely detached and insane. Don’t google. Just push through and live your life how you normally would. It’s the only thing that helped me.
Devon101Devon101
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- 5y
That is exactly how I have been feeling for the past week and it’s so anxiety provoking. “Detached and insane” can be so intense. What helps you to push through? Is therapy helping? I have my diagnostic session next Monday.
ejhejh
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@Devon101 I just had to live my life even when I felt so strange. Keep going outside and spending time with friends or family. Just do whatever you would normally do. STOP googling and reading on forums, because I know you are! That made it so much worse for me.
Devon101Devon101
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- 5y
@ejh Thanks for replying! I’ll try to do that. I have been reading about OCD on here and instagram and you’re right, I need to stop.
Makki23Makki23
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- 5y
@ejh What if my thoughts involve loved ones, etc? Also being religious questioning hasn't helped me cause insta pops up posts on my feed now.
ejhejh
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- 5y
@Makki23 I’ve learned that with ocd, it’s not the content of the thought, but your reaction to it. Everyone has weird thoughts.
edonss033edonss033
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- 5y
Googling never helps!! The fact that you are worried and so bothered by it shows that you aren’t a pshyopath! And i hear that depersonalization is common in people with ocd... I’m suffering from it right now too. Hang in there! It will get better ?
DessDess
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- 5y
Guys if we all were so crazy we wouldn’t second guess it... I have harm ocd as well and I see videos of murderers and I’m like wow what if I did that and what if I was a serial killer would I like It would I care and the thing is, people who are actually that way don’t obsess about it don’t get anxiety about it don’t fear it. That’s how I know it’s ocd
edonss033edonss033
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- 5y
Exactly!!!! We just have to keep remembering this
Makki23Makki23
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- 5y
Youve got a point. But its still horrible
DessDess
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- 5y
@Makki23 I KNOW TRUST ME hahah
IhateOCD99IhateOCD99
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- 5y
I've also dealt with this fear. Something that helped me was realizing that someone who is a psychopath would not worry about being a psychopath. Unfortunately, some people (like us) would worry about being one.
IhateOCD99IhateOCD99
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- 5y
And that's because of the simple fact that we have OCd
DessDess
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- 5y
@bm99 It honestly makes me mad I’m like this is almost worse just to have the uncertainty but we have to accept it and come to terms with it and face it.
Makki23Makki23
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Truth
ashleybooashleyboo
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- 5y
I deal with POCD and whenever I do research it doesn’t seem to help. I don’t want to die but I sometimes think about killing myself because of it. I feel like it’s the only logical thing to do if I am that kind of person. I fear people believing that I am or making me feel like I am. I talk to a counselor about it and some things are helping but at times it has felt like it’s not. I’m not a professional obviously but part of me believes that what you said at the end of this isn’t true and I hope things get easier and better for you. I myself have also dealt with the fear of being a murderer. I at one point felt like I didn’t even love anybody and sometimes I feel like I don’t care about things.
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