I’ve realised something recently about OCD I think it may help someone if they struggle with urges and impulses with ocd, this might not apply to everyone but that’s ok it’s just a personal thing that if anyone had experienced it or worried about it, it may help them, as I have come across others that have struggled with this type of urge before (anxiety driven). I’ll just give an example of one kind of urge and use two scenarios if they make sense, if it doesn’t apply to you that doesn’t mean it’s real for you and you actually are the thing you fear, this is just an example of one disturbing urge a lot of us get. If I get an urge, in the way that if I get an urge to do something bad (even though this is just created by fear, logically I know that but I still fear that it means something about me etc) For example, if I am worried I may strangle my dog when petting them for example (I know it sounds horrible but it’s the reality of ocd) I will then fear my hand is going to move towards their neck to strangle them and I can feel my hand has become hyper bodily aware and I can feel an urge in my hand like I might do that thing (again this is anxiety driven) then I will actually continue to pet that part of my dog anyway and I will literally feel the slightest movement in my hand which is no where near strangling my dog, literally just brushing past a part near the neck but then I will worry that I meant it and wanted to strangle my dog and believe I had acted on it. However, this is the thing I have noticed, the DOUBT part of ocd in that moment is almost doubting your logic, I found that the only reason I will actually go near the neck is not because I’m trying to strangle my dog, but more about the fact that I know that if I put my hand near the neck, LOGICALLY I know this isn’t doing any harm, but your brain is misfiring that you did go to do that thing intentionally? Or like when you are driving at night you may worry you will hit someone, and actually move your car the tiniest, slightest bit, with the fear saying ‘Someone could be there’ but your logic knows there isn’t, hence why you would have literally moved your hand the tiniest bit on the steering wheel as a way of trying to prove or disprove a point, if you genuinely believed someone was there, you would stop because your logic knows there is actually someone there. I know this sounds confusing, but it makes sense, we are literally doubting our logic, we are doubting that we don’t actually know the truth about what our brain is falsely sending us, even though we do. OCD is in the fear part of your brain, it isn’t logical at all, so it doesn’t understand logic, but that doesn’t mean you don’t understand it, even if you fear it’s real. I know this sounds deep, I’m sorry if it was long, I just wanted to some how get this out there and hopefully give someone a realisation and help them if they are struggling??