So I have 'Pure OCD', it always gets triggered when my thoughts are related to people and things I care about, never me. There are 2 triggers or obsessions. • Thinking if something bad is gonna happen to the people I care about. • Associating the people I care about with the people I hate, or evil people. This started when I was 16 years old. I am 21 now. My obsessions have always been the same throughout the years. I went through a lot of mental rituals to give me comfort throughout the years which were only temporary solutions. By going through websites related to OCD and self-treatments, I came to realize that I must just accept these thoughts as just 'thoughts' and not 'reality'. This greatly helped me get my OCD under control but it still never went away. My anxiety levels during the triggers have decreased significantly, but I must still do something about obsession. Can't just ignore them. I do sometimes succeed in passing the anxiety without any compulsion but that's not often. But I still do have 2 main compulsions- • Rationalizing the thought process which gives me some relief and then distracting myself by continuing what I was doing during the flare up. • Imagining the thought as a glass, and then breaking it. Bringing me out of my mind and facing the reality again. Though these compulsions do offer a great relief and have been working pretty well so far, are still a pain in the a** to perform. Honestly I am sick of this and just want to think clearly, and smoothly...if that makes sense. I installed this app 15 mins ago. Before I came across this app, I experienced my OCD flare up and instead of doing my ritual, I said "to hell with it" and just endured the obsession. It was kinda liberating and easier than I thought it was, and everything felt so smooth. Then I continued doing my work, but suddenly had trouble and difficulty breathing and realized that it must be because of enduring the obsession. Since then, I've had a few more of my flare ups, but I decided to do the same and endured through it. The breathing stuff didn't happen again, but then I started feeling desensitized between my thoughts and emotions, in other words, it felt like the connection between my thoughts and emotions was cut off. (I had no idea about ERP when I started doing this.) I think found out about ERP. But the connection between thoughts and emotions breaking seems a bit scary after I went through it. I think endure through my obsession whenever it comes up now. Hopefully this desensitized stuff also goes away. I am confident in my ability to endure it. This is a long post, and I thank you for taking your time to read it. Take care.