I have a feeling Im experiencing a bit of depersonalization/derealization, I feel numb, like Im just coasting through life. Ive had so much anxiety and oanic attacks that all that is left now is this weird feeling. Im anxious, but not anxious at the same time. Like Im just here. Has anyone expereinced the same and what was your experience?

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Date posted: 5y

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luchalysol

Date posted: 5y

Exactly this! Especially the last part. Its such a weird place to be in. Then I feel a bit of happiness and then the guilt sets in. I feel scared to even feel annoyed at someone cause or else that means Ill wanna hurt them. Idk what goes on anymore

luchalysol

Date posted: 5y

@Dom267 Id like to believe that to be true. I do believe that was has fueled my ocd is that about I did go through a period of time where I did intentionally isolated myself and I was just such an ass. Like I felt like I lost my sense of humanity. I was so bitter and annoyed with the world. Then I decided to make a change and well ocd decides it wanted to make an appearance.

luchalysol

Date posted: 5y

@Dom267 Im trying to do the same. I agree. It always does that. If I recall correctly, Ive always had a mild symptoms of ocd and I would always question myself. Ive always overcompensated and tried to be a good person. But now it has taken a life of its own and its quite scary. I totally understand. Does your family know of your ocd?

luchalysol

Date posted: 5y

@Dom267 Having a support system is super important. Im glad you have someone you can talk to. No, Im not currently on any medication. You?

luchalysol

Date posted: 5y

@Dom267 A few family members know of my ocd. They don't know the exact content of my thoughts but they do know the subtype. How long have you been taking it?

luchalysol

Date posted: 5y

@Dom267 I know. It does help. It may take about another month for things to level out. If only meds helped with eliminating thoughts. Are you in therapy as well?

luchalysol

Date posted: 5y

@Dom267 I would be ecstatic about thought eliminating meds. That's awesome! I start therapy on the 20th. Its exciting but scary at the same time.

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 25w

Numb and engaging more with thoughts? Help?

I’ve been feeling a bit stressed lately because my intrusive thoughts aren’t causing as much anxiety as they used to. It almost feels like I’m becoming a little numb to them, and because of that, I’m able to engage with them a bit longer. I don’t feel the usual rush of anxiety to pull away, and in some strange way, I even find myself focusing on them for a few seconds, like I’m actively thinking about them. It’s really stressing me out because I feel like by not feeling that immediate discomfort or anxiety, I’m letting the thoughts stay longer or giving them more power. I feel like part of me almost wants them to be there, and I don’t know if that’s a bad sign? They don’t even feel intrusive. Has anyone else experienced this? I’m just worried that the lack of anxiety is the reason I’m interacting more with these thoughts that would normal scare me. I feel guilt about it later. I am currently withdrawing from medication so that may contribute to this but it’s not the first time I experience this :/

malolin_21

Date posted: 24w

I think I lose my ability to experience reaction

So I’ve noticed that since my ocd started, every time I see something that triggers me like I can’t feel anything. For example, if I saw a case about a woman who murdered her kids I literally feel like I shoulf feel worse or something and sometimes the reaction comes after the rumination: What are you feeling? Do you feel bad enough? check body sensations, emotions etc… it’s scares me. Has anyone else had experience this?

nae nae

Date posted: 16w

Existing without anxiety?

Is this even a possibility? I'm not even sure if it's an OCD issue, GAD, or maybe a lack of something else, but I'm just constantly feeling off. Even if I'm not getting constant intrusive thoughts, I just feel on edge all the time? Is there anyone who's been able to overcome this? It bothers me so much 😭

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