I have a feeling Im experiencing a bit of depersonalization/derealization, I feel numb, like Im just coasting through life. Ive had so much anxiety and oanic attacks that all that is left now is this weird feeling. Im anxious, but not anxious at the same time. Like Im just here. Has anyone expereinced the same and what was your experience?

Exactly this! Especially the last part. Its such a weird place to be in. Then I feel a bit of happiness and then the guilt sets in. I feel scared to even feel annoyed at someone cause or else that means Ill wanna hurt them. Idk what goes on anymore

@Dom267 Id like to believe that to be true. I do believe that was has fueled my ocd is that about I did go through a period of time where I did intentionally isolated myself and I was just such an ass. Like I felt like I lost my sense of humanity. I was so bitter and annoyed with the world. Then I decided to make a change and well ocd decides it wanted to make an appearance.

@Dom267 Im trying to do the same. I agree. It always does that. If I recall correctly, Ive always had a mild symptoms of ocd and I would always question myself. Ive always overcompensated and tried to be a good person. But now it has taken a life of its own and its quite scary. I totally understand. Does your family know of your ocd?

@Dom267 Having a support system is super important. Im glad you have someone you can talk to. No, Im not currently on any medication. You?

@Dom267 A few family members know of my ocd. They don't know the exact content of my thoughts but they do know the subtype. How long have you been taking it?

@Dom267 I know. It does help. It may take about another month for things to level out. If only meds helped with eliminating thoughts. Are you in therapy as well?

@Dom267 I would be ecstatic about thought eliminating meds. That's awesome! I start therapy on the 20th. Its exciting but scary at the same time.