So today I have been really, really tired for some reason and I was just filled with this thought about giving up the fight and just accepting that I'm gay. I was then filled with anxiety because of this thought which is why I know it's just the OCD talking. But I've just been so tired today and been on my phone almost the entire day because I've had no energy to do anything and I just feel like giving up the fight. Is there something I can do to help me win this thought? I slept okay last night and I have exercised and ate okay. I just want to know the reason behind the lack of energy because I feel tired every day no matter how well I sleep. I know this battle against OCD is tireing but I haven't even felt so anxious lately. I've been handling my OCD quite well actually. Today I've just felt like everything is pointless.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

I’m going through this I just dk what to do

nat

Date posted: 5y

It feels so hopeless... I don't know if it's depression or just a side effect of treating OCD.

gingernutter

Date posted: 5y

It convinces me that if I give in to the thoughts then I’ll be happier and free, and makes me believe that I’m just in denial and should just ‘accept’ it which isn’t fun, sometimes I wish I could go back to the days when I was little and my ocd convinced me that my parents were werewolves instead, somehow that seems easier than this ??

nat

Date posted: 5y

Yeah I have that too. Like "life will be easier if I just accept this" but then I find that I'm just more anxious if I try that...

val ʚĭɞ

Date posted: 5y

your brain is probably really tired from processing the thoughts!! since the brain has labeled them as unwanted, it’s main focus would be to eliminate them but in reality we’re feeding them. due to this, some of our hormones raise or drop, making us feel weird. i’m also suffering from hocd, but i no long have anxiety. i can easily look at people (girls) and say that they’re pretty without feeling any attraction. the only thing that’s bothering me is that it keeps bringing up memories from when i experimented, but i didn’t like it at all. like, if i ddint like it then i’m straight!! + i was a 11 year old kid hahah. you’ll have good days n bad days but it depends on how you react to the thoughts.

nat

Date posted: 5y

Thanks for this insight! I also get memories that are concerned with stereotypes that are making me anxious. I hope this is just a bad day but I feel like I've been really tired for really long... Like no matter how long/well I sleep...

val ʚĭɞ

Date posted: 5y

@nat me too!! i cuff my jeans because i’m realy short but once i saw that bi girls to it.. i spiraled. this also happened w one of my favorite songs (sweater weather) and i just cried myself to sleep for days because of that. remember, at the end of every tunnel, there’s a very bright light!!! you are not your thoughts!! i was like this in my first month.. i was just tired of everything. but it’ll pass:)

nat

Date posted: 5y

@markleepleasemarryme Yeah it's kinda tough when you get over one trigger and your brain just finds a next one. And once you think about this the confirmation bias just goes for it and finds the "evidence" from everything! I once did this quiz like "what popular song is your life story" and mine was "call me maybe by carly rae jepsen" and the story in that is that the guy carly is into turns out to be gay and I was so anxious for so long! But I'm sure it'll get better with time as I keep fighting.

val ʚĭɞ

Date posted: 5y

@nat omgggg!!! has it ever happened to you that certain things that you used to do trigger you now?? but yes!! it’ll get better even thought you’ll have a few bumps in the road

nat

Date posted: 5y

@markleepleasemarryme Yes... it's very annoying but I'm trying to think of something else whenever I start analysing my past.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Does it feel like u like the thoughts sometimes, cause I’m dealing with this atm, feels so real and what’s the point

nat

Date posted: 5y

Yes, I've had these thoughts for so long that I think they're some inner me trying to tell me something. But I've been able to get through the anxiety of that. I just think that it's the OCD. But then knowing the cause to my thoughts is taking away the anxiety which is making me think that it must be true cause I'm not even anxious about it anymore...

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