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I’m going through this I just dk what to do
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It feels so hopeless... I don't know if it's depression or just a side effect of treating OCD.
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It convinces me that if I give in to the thoughts then I’ll be happier and free, and makes me believe that I’m just in denial and should just ‘accept’ it which isn’t fun, sometimes I wish I could go back to the days when I was little and my ocd convinced me that my parents were werewolves instead, somehow that seems easier than this ??
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Yeah I have that too. Like "life will be easier if I just accept this" but then I find that I'm just more anxious if I try that...
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your brain is probably really tired from processing the thoughts!! since the brain has labeled them as unwanted, it’s main focus would be to eliminate them but in reality we’re feeding them. due to this, some of our hormones raise or drop, making us feel weird. i’m also suffering from hocd, but i no long have anxiety. i can easily look at people (girls) and say that they’re pretty without feeling any attraction. the only thing that’s bothering me is that it keeps bringing up memories from when i experimented, but i didn’t like it at all. like, if i ddint like it then i’m straight!! + i was a 11 year old kid hahah. you’ll have good days n bad days but it depends on how you react to the thoughts.
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Thanks for this insight! I also get memories that are concerned with stereotypes that are making me anxious. I hope this is just a bad day but I feel like I've been really tired for really long... Like no matter how long/well I sleep...
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@nat me too!! i cuff my jeans because i’m realy short but once i saw that bi girls to it.. i spiraled. this also happened w one of my favorite songs (sweater weather) and i just cried myself to sleep for days because of that. remember, at the end of every tunnel, there’s a very bright light!!! you are not your thoughts!! i was like this in my first month.. i was just tired of everything. but it’ll pass:)
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@markleepleasemarryme Yeah it's kinda tough when you get over one trigger and your brain just finds a next one. And once you think about this the confirmation bias just goes for it and finds the "evidence" from everything! I once did this quiz like "what popular song is your life story" and mine was "call me maybe by carly rae jepsen" and the story in that is that the guy carly is into turns out to be gay and I was so anxious for so long! But I'm sure it'll get better with time as I keep fighting.
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@nat omgggg!!! has it ever happened to you that certain things that you used to do trigger you now?? but yes!! it’ll get better even thought you’ll have a few bumps in the road
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@markleepleasemarryme Yes... it's very annoying but I'm trying to think of something else whenever I start analysing my past.
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Does it feel like u like the thoughts sometimes, cause I’m dealing with this atm, feels so real and what’s the point
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Yes, I've had these thoughts for so long that I think they're some inner me trying to tell me something. But I've been able to get through the anxiety of that. I just think that it's the OCD. But then knowing the cause to my thoughts is taking away the anxiety which is making me think that it must be true cause I'm not even anxious about it anymore...
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I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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So my OCD has been bad lately. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where I’m just so mentally exhausted that I “accept” what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCD’s “truth” (that I’m attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. I’m starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.
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Is it possible that I’m so tired of ocd or that I’m so exhausted of it that I just feel like I don’t care about anything anymore? Or that the most important thing that I was fighting for (my relationship) since ocd started I just don’t care about it anymore and feel nothing about it. Like I completely lost myself in it, I lost my identity. But the bad thoughts are still there and because I feel so numb the thoughts feel even more real like that is my reality and this is more like a feeling than a thought. And the worst part is that I have rocd and every time I think about my bf my brain connects him to all the suffer I went through even if it’s obviously not his fault but is it possible that I really don’t love him anymore because my brain automatically connects him to something bad? I’ve started to feel this way a week ago, everything went pretty well for us before it, I didn’t have feelings or thoughts like this but from now my brain tells me that I don’t want to be with him anymore which is crazy because he was everything to me, everything I was fighting for but it feels so real. I feel so burnt out. I feel like there’s no way out of it this time and im going to feel this way forever. Please help! Is it normal to feel this way? Or I just changed so much that it became my reality?
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