I’m 27 and have lost most of my best friends over the years. I was like the life of the party and very popular in college and right after, but it seems like the older I get, the more falling outs I have, the more I drift apart from people and I have to start over making friends. As of a few years ago, I don’t even have someone to call a best friend. I have some close friends, but not a best friend. And now in this pandemic especially I feel lonely.

Thanks for asking! It’s ok but I haven’t been able to focus lately because of stress, OCD and personal issues. I feel like I do the bare minimum while working from home because my mind is always racing with thoughts. How are you?

LA is just as expensive as New York (Im in Long Island so the real estate is super expensive and everyone struggles, and I work in Manhattan so the commute is extra stress). I would have to save up a lot of money to just move out there without a job. I keep applying to jobs out there but hear nothing. I feel like it’s always who you know not what you know unfortunately. It’s like my penn state degree is just useless lol

Yes a nittany Lion ? I work on the legal team at discovery channel. I was supposed to go to law school but I took time off to travel and now it’s been 5 years and I don’t think I want to go to law school and get into more debt. So now I’m like a glorified paralegal. I majored in international politics and econ tho so I can really do many things. That’s cool you lived in Manhattan. I definitely do love NYC but after being born and raised here I just find everyone to be so rude and I’m just tired of the stressful lifestyle. I had moved to Dubai for a year and returned over a year ago. I just want to try something new.

UCLA is a great school! Yeah Dubai was interesting and dramatic for me and my love life but it was an experience. And that’s so nice of you to offer! But I’m weird about not being anonymous on this app because I don’t know who anyone is. Have you ever made friends on this app?

I had posted once asking if anyone on here met up or spoke on social media because it would be great to make friends who can relate. Do you have instagram or social media? Or however you speak with your two friends from here.

Yup just accepted you ☺️ nice to meet you!

Yes and I met a few friends right before this pandemic. They still keep in touch with me. But the point I was making was that I barely have any old friends left. Yes I’m making new friends but it takes time to get close. It’s still on the superficial level. Nothing beats the friends I grew up with or survived college with. It’s just depressing. The close friends I do have left I barely see these days.

So I got diagnosed at 14. My first OCD was HOCD. That lasted for a few years and then throughout college and after I’ve had Pure O, real event OCD, etc. I have a lot of blackout drunk nights on my wild days which makes my ocd what if doubting go out of control. I have fears that I could’ve been secretly recorded or gone viral somewhere so I obsessively check porn sites and the internet even though I’ve never been blackmailed or anything. I constantly try to seek reassurance from others or I confess so that I can feel better about things.

Wow, I don’t meet many people who have the same kind as me. It’s hard describing pure o and real event ocd. My ocd also mixes with depression and some PTSD. I’m in New York.

Yes! I am full of anxiety and depressing thoughts the next day. I used to be on meds but I don’t have insurance (as per NYS law I’m over 26 and can’t be on my dads insurance anymore plus the job I have now is through a temp agency). I was put on adderall Wellbutrin and klonopin to distract me from my thoughts but the adderall is too addicting. I have been trying to relocate to LA but I feel especially now it’s hard to woo employers from another location. I hate New York now and love nice weather. Any tips since u are in LA ?

I just followed you!

I just sent you an instagram DM with my number in case you ever wanna chat and help each other out. Now you have a third NOCD friend in New York ?