Ive been doing really well! With each day the anxiety lessens, and the thoughts have less significance in my life. I hope this carry’s on because I love the feeling of when I haven’t thought about it in a while and then I’m like wow! There’s still some doubt that I’m just lying to myself and everyone else, but it’s way less than before. Stay strong everyone!!

Well my hocd started in 2018 when my boyfriend broke up with me, but went away after a few days. I didn’t think about it at all until lockdown and I just spiraled from april to..the start the July I guess? It took a while. I think I just needed time as well. The reason it hit me so hard is because of how happy I actually am in my relationship and how confident ive always been in my sexuality. I’m just distracting myself as much as possible and not trying to fight the thoughts in my head and “prove” how I’m not attracted to girls. I just know I’m not, I know I don’t want to be in a relationship with one and I don’t want to have sex with one. Those are the facts, your anxiety is just going to make it feel like you don’t know the facts. The more you distance yourself from the importance of the thoughts, the less of an affect they’ll have on you. Do things that remind you of your old self, that’s what I’ve been doing. And slowly but surely I’m going back to my old ways, I’m happier and more bubbly again like I always was. You’ll get there, but ruminating won’t do anything, testing yourself won’t do anything. Give yourself time girly, you’ll be back to you in no time!xx

same i’ve been dealing with it for about a year and a half. last year the thoughts pushed me to like this girl but i was super unhappy and depressed. i told her i liked her i remember being so anxious telling her but why was i happy when i did? that’s what makes me wonder if i am actually lesbian. and came out as bi. my relapse started 3 months ago as an intrusive thought about this girl when i was masturbating. now the obsession is a 24/7 thing and has been for 3 months now.