No offence to actual bisexuals but while technically correct, calling myself bisexual makes me want to kill myself. I hate that I was attracted to men even though I enjoyed it at the time. Fucking shoot me. I want to be with women and have always been. Women feel true to me. Men do not. Even though I am attracted to the. Fuck this. Even saying I like men makes me feel like my life isnt worth living.

I feel the same way. My mind feels made up, like I know I’m a lesbian and I feel like I dread the future.

There's no offense to be taken with that, I empathize with you just from a different perspective. OCD is a bitch.

No, I always considered myself a lesbian, then got OCD and now my OCD has brought memories me actually being attracted to guys and I guess I'm bisexual :/

I don’t know if this will make you feel better, but I have always loved boys. But, I get aroused by women in sexual scenarios. I’m with a man I love. This attraction to women has never translated to real life (lol unless you count what HOCD says) and I do not consider myself bi. I want to be with a man, not a woman. That feels right. You can choose your term. Not your ocd

I do not know if that is OCD. I was attracted to those guys before the OCD and I still love one of them. Not sure hoe much of it is romantic but oh well. Gotta live with it. Even though I stupidly do not want toi Saying I am attracted to men makes me want to die so badly. Like I wanted to have sex with one of them I think. Ugh. Fml.

@fenna I guess I’ve kind of found myself in the same boat. What if I am gay? I mean what I wrote sounds like a lesbian I feel like, especially if it’s not arousal toward half naked men. If it’s any consolation, you can choose the life you live, label or not. You do not have to be with men if you don’t want to. This sounds really ego-dystonic to me, liking men isn’t something you desire or something that feels natural. So, tell yourself you’re only going to do what feels natural. You do not have to shove yourself into one box or another. Maybe you’re 95% lesbian 5% interested in men. Don’t live your life terrified of the 5%. I promise you this can get better

@wellwellwell I wanted to want men when I was younger and that's why I felt like I had to force crushes upon them, but it always felt fake. But now I think I actually was attracted to a few guys. Like it felt semi-right as I remember it and the guys I still love I love genuinely because he has been a massive influence in my life and has saved me many times. He's a huge idol of mine. But I have no idea if the feelings I have are platonic or not. I hate saying I'm remotely interested in men though. I just despise it. I do not hate men. But I hate even thinking I'm attracted to them. I am trying to drop labels completely right now and hoping it would help. Thank you. And we will both get better eventually.

@fenna I hope you’re able to get some peace, if it helps at all, your attraction to women sounds very authentic. If it feels right, that’s because it probably is. And thank you, I don’t know if I’ll be able to get over this. I’ve been trying to keep myself from asking if I’m gay on lesbian forums. I wish there was just some test I could take.

@wellwellwell The worst part is I’m married to a man so this has made me feel like the worst person in the worls

@wellwellwell I felt the most myself when I called myself a 100% lesbian. Now, that's lost. I'm sorry you're going through this. Keep in mind that wanting to ask is a compulsion. I send you all the peace and love. It's all going to be eventually fine.

@fenna maybe you’re going through comp het. search it up i think it may help you figure it out

@ocdear I know about comphet. When I found out about it I was dead sure I'm gay. Buur now I'm not sure. Even though I do think that the guys I liked were unattainable I'm not sure if it was comphet or genuine attraction :// like I would for sure never date them.