Hocd 16m I use to wank 5 times a day So I have hocd, and I can’t let go of the fact that I watched bisexual mmf and liked it, I only watched it 3 times and always came over the girl, even came before the vid even loaded so I didn’t get to see the acts, but idek I just can’t let go of the fact I watched it, I’m pretty sure this was because of porn addiction because I also ended up watching other fucked up topics and stuff like that, now the porn and gay acts don’t arouse me they make me feel sick, I’m only two days into no fap I think I watched these vids because of the oral thing not because the man was hot or anything like that, I have never had a crush on a man and always had crushes on girls, and like idek. I even got bored of these mmf vids and went back to normal porn and thought watching mmf was fucked up, but I can’t let go of I watched it and liked it

Sexual Orientation OCD

10lewis10

Date posted: 5y

The more taboo something the more exciting you find it. Everyone like that feeling of doing something that’s wrong for example sex with teacher/stepmom and so on but are brain have probably watched all these things so we become bored so your searching for that feeling however when you come across something like bi/gay prom your sexuality is like eww gross that’s digusgusting but because it’s taboo it’s does have that elimate it’s wrong but that’s porn and so stop watching it

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Have u been through this ?

thegazz

Date posted: 5y

i dont get your point. you think HOCD is a fantasy/fetish? if you do, it's not. It's horrendous and you seem to be mistaking it for sexual desire.

10lewis10

Date posted: 5y

@frghtfdfh Tbh I could never watch gay or bi porn however I did an exposure and tried watching gay porn, I clicked on it for 10 seconds and was disgusted and clicked off however I kept thinking about it and thinking what if this or what if that

10lewis10

Date posted: 5y

@thegazz I have hocd so yes I do get it, be dealing with it for a year and seeing a therpist so don’t tell me I’m mistaking it

thegazz

Date posted: 5y

@10lewis10 "the more taboo something the more exciting you find it"? what's with this statement?

10lewis10

Date posted: 5y

@thegazz That’s true why do you think, people try things like dressing up as a school girl, or videos like milf and daughter, just because you watch it and like it doesn’t mean you would fuck tour daughter in real life

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@10lewis10 No I’m not gay but due to porn addiction I watched bisexual porn/ not gay porn, and I came over the girl always

10lewis10

Date posted: 5y

@frghtfdfh I know what meant I read or your post and I don’t want to give you reassurance but I’m just gonna say you’ll get through as I know what your going through and you’ll look back at this and think why the fuck did I worry

thegazz

Date posted: 5y

well if you have porn addiction and high libido with matching HOCD, then it's really fcked up. i suggest you refrain from watching it. i watch mmf too, but because of the guys.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

I don’t have a high libido, I have none at all, and the gay shit makes me feel sick, I don’t want that shit I just want m attraction to girls back

thegazz

Date posted: 5y

@frghtfdfh yeah, i feel you. i want to be boy crazy again. sometimes hocd just makes me feel so lost of who i really am despite knowing what i really am.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@thegazz I have porn induced hocd, like I never found the man attractive I found the act arousing but like I never wanted to do it with a man

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