Hey, I would like to apologise before I begin as it's my second post for today and I'm afraid I'm being too much to handle in such a short time. Anyway, I've had this question/doubt at the back of my mind for a very long time, but because there were other things to worry about I just didn't pay (enough) attention to it and tried to let it be. However, because today it felt like I thought about my thoughts on purpose and wanted to think about them, the doubt became stronger. The doubt is whether I'm truly struggling with a mental illness or I'm just a weirdo. I've seen before that other people struggle with this too, but I've noticed certain features in my case that could prove the fact that I'm just a really terrible human being, who has been creating stuff in her head from the beginning. Here are some of the main ones: 1. First and the most important: the fact that I can allow myself to think of the thoughts on purpose. They are what I fear the most - why on earth would I want to do such a thing?! It's inexplicable, I don't desire it but it still happens. Weird... 2. I've barely shown symptoms of physical anxiety since all this mess started. I know this may sound weird but the majority of people with OCD that I've met/talked to have had physical/physiological symptoms of anxiety. All I'm experiencing is just a few of them, and they are mild and mainly happening in my brain (e.g. all or nothing thinking, second guessing, wanting reasurrance). This makes me doubts big time! On a side note, I struggle with social anxiety and there I can see a lot of physiological symptoms all the time. To me that shows that I indeed have social anxiety. But with OCD is totally different. 3. It seems that OCD doesn't affect me the way it affects other people. Again, weird but it feels like people struggle much more than I do. I'm not saying that I want to struggle more but something doesn't add up. To conclude, it feels like I'm an outsider and I should have not being diagnosed with OCD as I don't meet numerous criteria. I know that my therapists are great professionals and I'm not trying to offend them by saying that they gave me a wrong diagnosis, but I feel like I belong in a prison rather than being free thinking that my brain works in a different way (than the average brain) and that I feel and think the way I do because of it. Okay. I'll stop now. I'm sorry as this turned out to be a really long post. I'm sorry if I've said something stupid and/or irrelevant but these are my current thoughts and I really wanted to share them with you. Thank you so much for reading this!

POCD

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Ocd will always try and find ways to “prove” that it isn’t ocd. Your doubts and your constantly analyzing whether it is or isn’t ocd is just another symptom. Treat these worries like ocd thoughts. “Maybe they’re real, maybe they aren’t.” Sometimes I find it easier to start with “maybe they’re real, probably they aren’t.” And work my way up.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Have you tried the new SOS feature? I really like some of the things he says on it about just sitting with discomfort. My favorite quote is “your stronger than you give yourself credit for.”

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Thank you! Sounds like a good approach to this issue. Even if I don't feel like doing it, I will give it a go anyway.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@corablue Hope it goes well! ❤️

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@Nikki1809 Thank you! ?

Ben84

Date posted: 5y

1. I can allow myself to think the thoughts on purpose. 2. I don't get to anxious at the thoughts anymore. I sometimes even think I like them. 3. It feels like other people struggle more than I do. Do you think I belong in prison?

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Nope, you don't.

Ben84

Date posted: 5y

@corablue Why do you talk to yourself in ways you wouldn't talk to me? I work with kids. Between the two of us it would appear I'm far more dangerous.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@Ben84 Trust me, I'm the dangerous one.

Ben84

Date posted: 5y

@corablue Maybe. But you didn't answer my question ☺.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@Ben84 Well, because I just feel like I don't deserve to be talked to and treated nicely. And because it seems that I'm different (not special, just different).

Ben84

Date posted: 5y

@corablue "Different" or not, I like talking to you ☺.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@Ben84 Thank you! That's really nice of you to say that ?

Vlera ibraj

Date posted: 5y

Hello! Looks like ur struggling with OCD aswell, Im making a Snapchat groupchat with other people on it from this app aswell, If you want to join it please drop ur username, my plan is to talk about our thoughts that Bother us so we can Help eachother❤️

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Hey, thank you so much but unfortunately I don't have snapchat. But thank you for asking anyway, I appreciate it!

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