sillybilly
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FathomableFathomable
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Well, on one hand this is definitely an avoidance compulsion and changing your normal behaviour like this because of your OCD isn't going to help it out in the long run. On the other hand, I agree about trying new genres. Some of my favourite songs are hymns, and you'd definitely love the song "Through Heaven's Eyes" from the DreamWorks movie the Prince of Egypt. It's all about starting fresh and compassion from after Moses accidentally kills that guard and runs away from the city. It genuinely helps me out when I feel shitty.
sillybilly sillybilly
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? now you got me obessing over something new
FathomableFathomable
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@sillybilly Well, we all know this already though. It's the same thing as quitting porn when you have a sexual obsession to avoid rumination/compulsion triggers :s it can reduce your stress levels temporarily to have less exposure to triggers but it's really rigid and it can spiral, because triggers come back attached to something else. E.g. quitting porn because it's triggering -> quitting sex because now it triggers the thoughts-> quitting masturbation because doing it at all starts to trigger the thoughts-> avoiding anything remotely sexual in a very paranoid way because scrolling past boobs in a Twitter meme is triggering. By the time you get to the end of the line, your life is full of OCD-dictated restrictions keeping you trapped in your comfort zone and terrified of all media. With your situation, it's really likely that the moral OCD will just find something different to latch onto, like a worry that the music isn't from the right subgroup of Christianity or is still too rock and roll, or that the books you read aren't acceptable, or that social media is demonic, or that your friends are bad un-godly influences, etc. It finds something new anyway and you end up with a more restricted life. It's one of the guiding principles for OCD treatment which gets the whole family involved, for example, that they not alter the normal behaviour and environment in the household even an inch when that's what the OCD wants, and to keep the person as engaged as possible in their normal routine even when they want to rule out certain activities or change the way they do something to avoid triggers. Avoiding triggers is just as much of a demand from OCD as doing compulsions is. :(
sillybilly sillybilly
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@Scoggy I’m making a new Spotify account with musics of all kinds for exposures:) I hope that’s a step
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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Scoggy hit the nail on the head here. I've done the same avoidance compulsion. I was convinced that any song mentioning kissing etc was "audioporn". If you want, we can talk about how my therapist and I structured my exposures
sillybilly sillybilly
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Yes I would like to know pls
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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@sillybilly So we made a playlist on Spotify with songs that felt "bad" and "wrong". It started out with songs that were pretty tame and gradually built up to songs that were explicit. I practiced listening to them for a set period of time each day. Eventually I watched the music videos and lipsynched the lyrics that triggered me
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