Boy am I going through it at the moment! I have been struggling tremendously with my ROCD. Me and my boyfriend have been through hell and back this quarantine. My OCD completely kicked in full force and my relationship just completely has been effected to the max. At times I get scared it permanently got damaged and can’t be fixed. My boyfriend and I struggled with about 5 deaths this quarantine. One being his bestfriend along with 3 other friends and I lost an uncle. We’ve been struggling both with our mental health, money, jobs, communication, etc. To make things worse his anxiety went up the same time my OCD went through a major spike and that completely took us through a whirl wind. This is also his first real relationship so there’s certain things that we bump heads on because he’s just learning or getting used to. This is my first healthy relationship so it triggers the hell out of my ROCD. At times it feels like he’s almost manipulating me (my obsession at the moment) because he’s such a nice person to everyone and tries to make everyone happy and I’m just so used to seeing on social media and friends around me that them being nice to everyone is just weird and have a bad meaning behind it. He likes complimenting people to uplift them and we talked about it today a bit more and he told me he just always wants people to feel good when he sees they’re down because he never had that growing up and he said he knows how it feels so he always tries to be nice to everyone but I’ve just dealt with so much manipulation and exes that flirted with everyone that to me it seems so much like a threat ( I’m actually freaking out as I type this). He also at times misunderstands what I say and I misunderstand what he says because details get left unsaid. For example, today we also talked about how he wishes we could backtrack and start fresh and that completely set me off. I took it the wrong way and started spiraling. I saw it as if he regretted our relationship up to that point and that he disliked how we were doing things at the moment and that our foundation wasn’t stable enough. He ended up later on explaining to me that he meant it as in he wished to just treat me way better than what he initially started with. He said he felt he only gave me half of what he was capable of and that he wished to give me more. He said he only felt he gave me half of what he was capable of because he felt we moved too fast, he was just so excited about his first relationship that he wanted to do everything right away. I then told him he could still do that without starting from the beginning. We both agreed on that but my mind remained on the negative thoughts like always. I just view everything negative and I know it’s not my fault I just can’t help it. We’ve been dating close to 8 months now but it feels like more with everything we’ve been through already. I see it in a positive way though, I know mostly anything wont get in the way of us anymore. We’ve decided to just let go of past traumas and move forward.