Hi people! Okay so I got this app back almost after a month after kind of beating homosexual ocd. I personally realized something very great about myself and I honestly couldn't be more content. I still have it but it doesn't greatly affect me since now I finally have a boyfriend. Ever since I started a relationship with him, my anxiety and urges to cry have increased. I get these awful thoughts like -what if he leaves you?- -what if he finds a girl prettier than you?- -he is lying just like your previous bf, he will leave you within a month- -you will never last with and only ruin him and his mental health- -Do you really like him? Are you forcing yourself because he confessed to you first?- -you won't defos end up with him- -he is only treating you nice for his own benefit- -he might leave you like the ASD guys you hard about- These are a few I've gotten and Idk if I've developed the relationship theme. For the past few days I've been crying at the thoughts because ik there's an uncertainty and that I might ruin him with my anxiety, OCD and BDD. He has Asperger's and I try my best to not directly tell him about my mental health. I really don't want to stress him with my problems. My thoughts aren't normallu about cheating on him but more on if he likes me truly and if we will ever last I've been reassuring myself a lot and I'm also getting triggered by various things. I'm planning to do ACT for all of this so I hope that helps. Thank you for coming to my rant. I really hope you guys get better. Love y'all ?

Relationship OCD

Ben84

Date posted: 5y

Sounds like you have a lot of awareness about your mental health and are taking good steps to do something about it ?!

san🌻

Date posted: 5y

Aww thank you so much!! I really appreciate it ☺️

Deanna

Date posted: 5y

I have actually been feeling very similar... I am not sure, but I also feel like mine has presented itself differently over the years, from religious/morality, to now the ROCD. I hope you can find your answers, and that things get better! Seeking help is always a brave first step ??

san🌻

Date posted: 5y

Aww thank you so much and I'm really sorry about you. Believe me, you're stronger than this and you can get through it. I just saw this comment on my Reddit post which basically said "y'all are teens, your relationship wing last". I'm trying to sit with an uncertainty and the anxiety but it's so hard. I ended up crying for the fourth time today :(

Deanna

Date posted: 5y

@sanzida? I wouldn’t take that to heart. I know lots of my friends who have been dating and are now married since 19, were 30 now and they are all still going strong. It’s all about the willingness to work together and being honest with each other about your needs and feelings. Have you shared any of these thoughts with your SO?

san🌻

Date posted: 5y

@Deanna Omg that's kind of reassuring to know!! And umm no. I don't want to tell him. I feel like it will make him stressed, he already has asd and he is so excited to be with me and I don't want to ruin it. I feel like he will eventually get the idea that I don't like him and leave me. My rocd is making me doubt it I really have feelings for him or not and now it's telling me I don't and I want to cry :(

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