*Sexual theme* kind of awkward topic, but im going to see if anyone else can relate, maybe talk about it or if I could hear someone else's experiences. I know this is a really strange question but I am trying to work things out in my head and this emotion I am feeling and if anyone else gets what I mean because it is not the same as a shame feeling, its different. I feel a little vulnerable about this but here it goes. Its kinda linked to other problems I have and im trying to recognise these emotions so I can try to address them before the feeling gets overwhelming, but I'm going to try and keep things simple. I cant work out whether its my ptsd or my ocd that is the route cause to these emotions. I think they both don't help one another, however i was wondering if anyone has any advice or similar experiences they could share with me. When something sexual happens, or whenever I get sexual thoughts, images or memories, i get this feeling of disgust, its not like shame, its different, where like you just feel wrong in so many ways and like uncomfortable. Does anyone else get what im trying to say or anything similar? Like I sometimes describe it as scratchy feeling, like I need to swallow alot, like uncomfortable disgusting wrong feeling and it can fully overwhelm me and i cant shake it off like sick to my stomach and when I'm feeling this way, any interaction with someone makes me feel even wronger because I feel like errrr wrong, makes me want to like curl up inside. Whenever I try to explain it, people just can't seem to grasp what I'm trying to describe. I know that probably sounds like gibberish, sorry it was so long.

Thank you for sharing ?

Thank you for sharing with me too! I'm so glad you understand what I mean. What do you do when you feel this way? How do you react or try to suppress the feeling? Its really frustrating because of my childhood, im very hypersexual, but I get like images of people I don't want to be sexual with or I get memories, or i feel sexual towards someone who i dont want to be and its like my body is getting ready for sex when I dont want sex and it makes me feel soooooo wrong, dirty and wrong. Like a feeling of disgust, Its difficult I just really want to find someone who experiences the same, so I could talk with them about it, because I feel quite alone with this

Hello, No not really, I don't stuggle with the religious ocd, I have my beliefs, as I am wiccan, however practising wicca doesnt bother me that much in the eyes of being dammed, as apart of the wiccan rede says 'ye harm none, do as ye will.' So basically we dont get in trouble, as we dont beilive in hell. As long as we are kind to everyone and everything and it doesn't harm or cause negative impact, We can do whatever we please. The only thing that bothers my ocd is the three fold. And the three fold, is basically karma where whatever you put out, you get back three times. So if your bad or good you get that back three times, that is really the only punishment you can get. but its interesting that you mentioned religion because I never thought of it from that perspective. However, I think i know where it stems from, but Its more like feeling wrong, and like sexually dirty and wrong. I find it quite hard to explain, sorry. Thank you for your help though x

@Littleluna I just read your reply to another person below, and I think I understand more now. You mean that you have sexually intrusive thoughts about things you don’t want to be sexual with or about, correct? Like you may get a groinal response when looking at something or someone you don’t want anything sexual with. Even worse, to have sexual things towards that thing is probably something you consider wrong or inappropriate. And sometimes if you are feeling sexual in a good way towards something you do genuinely enjoy in that way, intrusive images and urges could pop up that try to tell you your sexual feelings are actually towards something else. Intrusive thoughts about sexuality is soooo common. And I can tell you I get things like that all the time. For example I might feel “in the mood,” and start to think about having sex with my boyfriend or to fantasize in some way, and my brain will have someone or something totally inappropriate pop up. Then the OCD cycle can start where I need to try to figure out why that popped up and if that’s secretly what i really want and if I’m a different kind of person than you want to be. Or I just sit and feel gross and terrible that the thought was there and decide not to do anything sexual because I’d feel too icky. Am I a little closer this time?