hate_ocd.123
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have you tried accepting the uncertainty? like every time you see a girl and your brain says “what if you’re attracted to her?” just think “maybe i am, maybe i’m not. i don’t need to worry about it right now though”, and try your hardest to move on with your day. this might seem scary, but allowing thoughts to freak you out just accentuates your ocd and gives it more power. ocd likes to take your biggest fear and turn it into something that feels real. think of it as a bully in your brain, the only way to silence it is to show it that it can’t bother you. false attraction sucks but i’m going through it too, remember you are not alone! :)
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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Can ocd comepletly retrain your thought process where you think the opposite of everything and it feels like you ACTUALLY think that?? Like they are your thoughts
ssiegelssiegel
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@hate_ocd.123 yes, and i’ve really struggled with that. it’s trademark ocd and it’s the worst. something else that’s getting me through is future visualizations. take a deep breath and picture yourself where you know DEEP DOWN you want to be. think about how proud your future self will be of you for getting through this hard time and finally getting where you deserve to be. i believe in you.
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@ssiegel I know where I want to be but it feels like I can’t be there. It feels like I think kissing boys is gross and kissing girls isn’t and it feels so real. Like I can’t say I don’t. But I truly don’t wanna be with a girl. I’m so scared I’m gay. I wanna be with a guy so badly but I can’t. That’s always how I invisioned my future but now I can’t:( I’m so scared rn
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@hate_ocd.123 how long ago did this start?
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@ssiegel Umm it’s been on and off for like six years
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@ssiegel Before I was 12 I never thought about girls it was only boys. Right before this hit I had my first sex dream with a guy. I chased boys around on the playground as a kid. I knew what gay was since I was a kid and knew it was alright but I never thought of myself like that until I began obsessing. How could a child that did all that turn out a lesbian?:(
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@ssiegel As a kid I thought of girls as sisters. Never in a romantic way. Please don’t tell me I’m a lesbian :(
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@hate_ocd.123 that’s a long time to struggle with something like this. are you currently in therapy or on any medications?
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@ssiegel I feel like this sounds so much like denial
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@ssiegel No
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@ssiegel I have to wait for another month to start therapy. And i stopped taking medication I need a refill
ssiegelssiegel
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@hate_ocd.123 are you able to see a therapist or have you chosen not to? it hurts me that you have to struggle so much, you are super strong and i have a lot of respect for you.
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@ssiegel I’ve been to therapy for trauma/abuse survivors and extreme ptsd but never ocd I’ve struggled since I was a kid But my parents won’t let me see one so I have to wait until I’m 18
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@hate_ocd.123 would you be interested in reaching out to me on another platform like instagram? i think we are the same age and i would love to connect, there aren’t many people in my personal life who truly understand my ocd. if not and you’d like to keep anonymity i completely understand :)
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@ssiegel Ya sure thing! My insta is @annehatesocd
ssiegelssiegel
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@hate_ocd.123 i just followed you on my photography account :)
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