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The funniest part? I'm an atheist -_-
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That is funny lol
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@hateocd123 Yep, the absurdity of OCD. I kept searching for hours for testimonials online coming from people who signed a contract with the devil to get something specific. And obviously I have found many (people asked for the affection of a girl and got it, for example). So the doubt has settled in. My brain goes "what if it's true? What if all of this is possible? What if I am doomed for eternity?" ?
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When I was eight I made a joke about loving the devil, after watching the movie Ghost Rider. My brothers and I were watching another movie, Barnyard, lmao and I said it outloud. At that moment my OCD took hold of it and I thought I'd sold my soul to Satan somehow in the process. I kept getting the intrusive thought, "I'm in love with the Antichrist" and I would say "in the name of Yeshua I command you to leave" over and over again. I'm not really sure how I got over it. I had a really abusive teaching who used to put me in a dark closet and that definitely weighed on the trauma of the OCD. She was mad that I was distracted all of the time (saying prayers in my head). I know that this has nothing to do with what you said, but it reminded me of that experience. I didnt even know I had OCD I just thought it was normal.
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Oh wow, I am glad you've got out of that situation anyway. But being locked for your prayers? That indeed sounds extremely abusive...
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@xandi She used to dump my desk on the floor, scream in my face, call me a cry baby, encourage other students to bully me, put me in a dark closet, if she brought any treats to class I wasn't allowed to have any. She used to have a box for this thing called "gotchas" where students could anonymously write a note about another student being helpful attached with a starburst candy. I never got one once, even though I had friends who I knew were putting them in for me, which means she was taking the ones for me out of the box. I had a crush on one of my class mates and told him on a field trip. For some reason he told the teacher. She sat the whole class down and said that it was inappropriate for me to have and express those kinds of feelings at my age. All I did was say I liked him. A student called me a fat ass on a separate occasion and I cried. The teacher asked why I was crying and when I told her she called me a tattle-tale. That was just some of the shit she put me through. All because I wasn't able to focus in class due to severe anxiety and compulsions, I also have what used to be classified as Aspergers. I broke down and told my mom what was going on. She tried to get the bitch fired, but the school admin did everything to protect her. My brother used to play around with a recorder and he'd come to meetings with my mom sometimes. There was a meeting she had with my teacher alone, my brother recorded it without my mother or the teacher's knowledge. He did it again at a meeting with my mom, administration and the teacher. He caught her lying about some of the abuse comparing the two separate recordings. We couldn't do anything legally with the recording though because in my state it was legal to record a person without their knowledge.
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@hateocd123 Same here, in France. You cannot use a recording of a person unless she authorises it. But oh my... What a mentally disturbed person that teacher was.
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@xandi Yes, extremely :/
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@hateocd123 I'm so sorry you went through that
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@Makki23 Thank you for the support.
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