sorry for all the posts on here but I just feel like venting, i just had my first run in with a rude person on here about homophobia and transphobia and honestly I’ve gotten so used to everyone being so friendly that I’ve kind of forgotten about people having views like that aswell. I think it’s really upsetting that no matter how nice someone can be that they can do a complete 180% when topics like those come up :(

I’m new to the site but not at all new to OCD. I’ve seen a lot of posts about “hocd” and just generally posts about people thinking they’re gay or whatever. I’m a lesbian and honestly it’s a really confusing and awful thing to see. I’m sure the posts aren’t literally homophobic but like, it’s shitty to go on an app to help your mental illness and then to see people portray homosexuality as an illness!!!! I know that there could be straight people who have these intrusive thoughts but HEY!! I had those intrusive thoughts too and I ended up being gay. I thought it was all anxiety but it wasn’t! It just feels so weird to see this stuff. If I saw those posts as a teenager, I might still be closeted and self-hating. Anyone else have thoughts?

Sometimes this app feels slightly unwelcoming towards lgbt. Not in the sense where I don’t feel like I can say anything, but in the sense where I feel like people forget we exist on here. I understand that people struggle with religious ocd, but sometimes i feel like people forget that LGBT people struggle with ocd too, and it does not help when you see a bunch of people talking about going to hell for being gay on this app. Again, I understand having religious OCD and these fears and I’m not trying to censor anyone, but it just makes me feel like there’s no place for me sometimes on here, and it’s really hurtful to see these type of things.

When I was really struggling with OCD at the beginning of it, I used to go on an anonymous website and just vent. Just vent it all out every time a scary event happened. Some people would say the most horrible things. Like truly sick. Some people were supportive and that’s what I was seeking, but I just remember how disturbing it was to be exposed to people who were the opposite. It only happened about twice before I stopped doing that bc I realized how weird people were. I was around 16/17 so idk I was naive and dumb in many ways, but venting on that site gave me an outlet for all the stress I was going through mentally. But some people just . I can’t believe what they would say in response. I’m so traumatized I wanna throw up. Idk why but I assumed that I would come across good people on that site. Like I was just too trusting and naive and didn’t know how to protect myself nor manage the risk of talking to people who are truly sick in the mf head. I wanna kms just from how sick it makes me to remember .