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It's so hard to deal with this every time my period is late i start to think that i'm pregnant oh it's so bad sometimes even when i get my period i still believe that i'm pregnant
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Unfortunately, I can't relate to that part ☺.
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So no....no one finds that wild that people can come home and not wipe their groceries? Okay. Hahaha
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Sorry, we got off on a tangent didn't we ☺? Do I wipe my groceries off? No. But when my contamination OCD was at its worst, did I do similar things? You betcha.
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Hhhh no that's bad they should do that but we have ocd so every thing seems bad
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@Ben84 Thanks Ben! I actually really appreciate knowing that you dont and you're still healthy! And also appreciate knowing that you got over that part of your ocd. Nice to know this isnt forever.
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I get you but est feel like after all this time covid is in the world people find the cleaning like so much work to do and they get sick of doing so they stop after a while it's not healthy or safe but i think the logic behind what they doing also it is very strusseful to live cleaning all the and i think we (ocd people) knows how hard it can be
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I also have cantamination ocd but i have only one type of it it's (sperm, semen) ocd i know it's very weird and not very popular in the ocd community but yeah that's one of my many thémes
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That was one of my first themes.
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@Ben84 I think your male from your name but can you tell me in how form you had it cuz mine was (still) the fear of getting pregnant from the toilette sets i wonder how does work for a man i hope you understand my question
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@Naya rownan For instance, I was afraid of even tiny particles of it getting everywhere. I hated the thought that my semen would touch anyone else in any way. I also had some fears that I could possibly get someone pregnant if they came in contact with my semen.
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Hhh Lucky you
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I agree it blows my mind what people don’t do for general cleanliness or germs, let alone with Covid. If I am to go out mostly to a doctor appt, I feel I’m already dirty from being there so I will hit the supermarkets on the way home. My groceries go right into the garage or the system below. Clothes into paper bags. Then, I go right into to the shower for a while. I do have a system for my food. I get almost all of my groceries delivered, rarely go to germy store except as stated above. I leave my groceries in garage for a few days. (Except for my cleaning products, Clorox wipes, bleach or Lysol they are temperature sensitive so they go into a clean paper shopping bag.) Then they are put into of the 3 cardboard banker boxes I have by the front door. I wear gloves and wipe down everything that comes in this house. I wear gloves to get the mail and it goes into a paper bag for at least a week. Perishables go into little lunch bag or little 4 gallon trash bags to be wiped down at a later time. I’ve never had Covid, and I am fearful that I could get it. I am not a good candidate to get something like that. I have high blood pressure high cholesterol a little overweight, (but so is everybody else),type AB blood and I’m older, 54 .
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sorry this is super long i just wanna know if anyone else has been thru something similar bc i feel super alone 🩷 i have super bad contamination ocd. it was bad already but my house was like my safe space until a few months ago someone brought something into my house that i considered ‘contaminated’. and so then i felt like that part of the house was contaminated, then it spread to everything outside my room (since family is moving around touching stuff) and then somehow i got convinced everything in my room except my bed is contaminated and i need to wash my hands after touching it. in my mind its like the contamination just infinitely spreads to things after the tiniest bit of touch. idek what im afraid of anymore or even what the original thing was but i can’t let it go. when i have to wash off contamination i have to wash at least 4 times or until it feels right, or sometimes take rlly long showers and wipe down all my stuff. i even throw away food and clothes or just whole items sometimes because they feel so contaminated i don’t want them in my space. i can’t be super near people or have anyone touch me, and i also can’t bring anything new into my room since it had to go through the entry of my house which feels contaminated. i feel like all i do is lay in bed and then wash my hands and do compulsions so i can go eat or do other stuff around the house. also i never go out because i’m bc people outside make me feel dirty, and i hate thinking about how many people have touched stuff in stores or in public and stuff. so im just in my room worrying all day. i feel so trapped and the contamination/avoiding it is all i think about anymore i barely have time for anything else and im never present when i talk to people because im worrying about if i accidentally got contaminated. im starting erp next week and knowing that im going to have to expose myself to things is really freaking me out. does anyone else have this kind of ocd ? im exhaustedddd 🥲🥲💔
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A few days ago, I posted how proud I am of myself, that I managed to go to the doctor to get a vaccination. Now, two days later, I find myself panicking and ruminating. It was a practice where they also test a lot for HIV and other blood diseases and in my mind, the needle/syringe they used for my vaccination was somehow contaminated with blood from another patient. Maybe by accident but sometimes my mind would make up a scenario where they would do it even on purpose. I was so proud of myself, that I managed to go there on Monday and now I am making up scenarios how I caught HIV by going there - I am feeling guilty because I was „careless“. Any tips for the moment? ❤️
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I did an exposure today. More accidental than purposeful, but that's pretty much how it always is for me 😬 So basically, I had to touch some dirty shoes in order to put them on (or at least dirty in my mind), that I had previously trudged through garbage & used syringes with about a yr ago, like I'm talking a "landfill-level" hoarded house - around June of last year if I remember correctly (me and one other person were cleaning that hoarded room for a payment $100 each, which was originally gonna be $25 but the owner eventually realized/admitted that the conditions were just too awful to be cheap about it. Anyways, I didn't realize just how gross it would be till I got there - bcuz the one-time job advertisement didn't exactly mention the severity, only that it would be an organizing of boxes, so I didn't know just how triggering it was going to be for my OCD. It was unspecified. And at one point I got so nauseated that I had to step outside and I was gagging over the lawn). But ya, I don't think I've used these particular shoes since, not once, and this being literally a year later. I also don't remember ever washing them, just sort of stuffing them to the back of the shoe rack, bcuz when it comes to OCD... "ignorance is bliss" or whatever 😂, avoidance, out of sight out of mind... etc. Well, I chose to take a risk and wear them this morning bcuz they went with my outfit, and I planned to wash my hands when I got home anyway. BUT, what completely slipped my mind is that it was quite windy outside, which meant I was constantly brushing my long hair out of my face, u know... away from my eyes so I could see where I was going 😒, with my now "perceived-to-be-dirty" hands, AND -- i wore some of that dreaded lip balm of which I would normally be grateful for to prevent an equally dreadful case of dry lips, so my hair was also "sticking" to said lips, meaning I was having to move my hair off of my mouth like every 5 minutes - yes, very annoying. And all of this for a yard sale, was it worth it? 😅. Well perhaps, cuz I did buy something. Anyways, I was lightly grazing my face & mouth, not that lightly was gonna help, therefore, even though I did wash my hands upon my return, the transfer of germs would have already happened imo I'm at a point now where I'm basically just telling myself "if I get sick, i get sick" 🤷♀️ Cuz there's no compulsion, at least none I can think of, that could possibly undo the potential damage that's already been done (and I'm not asking for ideas LOL) If heaven forbid this does result in sickness, I'll just have to act accordingly by going to the doctors, ppl do it every day... Obviously if I become ill, that will ultimately suck, but like I said, it happens to ppl every day. It's not unheard of * If u guys think I'm in any actual danger - that I've taken on some sort of poison - then sure, tell me, but otherwise I think it's fine * And I feel like what I said before still applies, that if I've taken on board a poison, and start showing symptoms like involuntary/uncontrollable tremoring or something, then unfortunately I'll just have to go to the hospital (of which my city's hospital definitely isn't the best, extensive waits, but ik I'm just spiralling down the rabbit hole now)... this is what ppl do when they're poisoned, no? Go to the hospital? ✅ I'd be lying if I said I wasn't still feeling a little uneasy, but I keep reminding myself of how much time has passed. And most importantly, these converse shoes, even though they were pushed to the back, were still in contact/often touched by my OTHER pairs of shoes in the front. So the cross-contamination has likely already been happening throughout the whole year when wearing my alternative shoes, without my OCD alerting me to it, and without any ailment to me Feeling hopeful 🙏 🙌
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