I haven't had a panic attack for about 3 weeks now and I just had a mild one. I need some support. Im supposed to fly out to see my son tomorrow and ocd told me that since the number 7 is my lucky number, that I should act on my thoughts on the 7th. Im so terrified of how ocd is evolving. I had a mild (compared to others) panic attack. I kept trying to do erp everytime I began to do compulsions. I didn't even go to the gym. I messaged my therapist about this so Im waiting to see what she says. Im at a loss. I feel like life is taking my son away from me. I wanna be with my son, but I also want to protect him. Im just exhausted.

Harm OCD

Daisy102

Date posted: 5y

In so sorry love❤ if you want to be there for your son though you're going to have to push through the terrifying thoughts. In so sorry yiure going through this, but compulsions won't help. Remember- his dad will be around. Family will be around. And most importantly, you have harm ocd. So do you need to worry that you'll act on it?

luchalysol

Date posted: 5y

Yes, I wanna go and see my son. Yesterday I was speaking to my son on video chat and ocd was throwing thoughts at me, cause my son loves to play 20 questions and I will admit it does get annoying sometimes. But I did regroup and changed my perspective to gratitude and it helped. I enjoyed his 20 questions session.

Daisy102

Date posted: 5y

Its terrible terrible terrible, bit you KNOW that on the 8th, the terror will pass and be replaced by a new thing to fear. The nore you defy it the stronger you will be for your son.

luchalysol

Date posted: 5y

Imma only be in town to see my son for about 48hrs and have to fly back so I can finish packing my stuff. Im planning to move back to my home state, I have a better support system there and my son is also there. I won't be able to have him full time while I recover but I will be seeing him.as much as possible.

Daisy102

Date posted: 5y

@luchalysol That's awesome, lucha. I wish you all the best. I will be praying for you today and tomorrow, and please report back. You can do this! ?

luchalysol

Date posted: 5y

@Daisy102 Thank you! Ive been better and ocd has kindof stopped bothering me as much. Whenever I bring up my son it does throw thoughts at me but because Im at work by myself today, Im practicing erp as much as I can. Thank you! I will check in ??

Dess

Date posted: 5y

First of all I'm so sorry.... panic attacks are very scary. Just know that you got through it and you are strong enough to do that again. For the panic attacks, try getting inositol powder you can order it on amazon and or vitamin shoppe. I totally get how you are feeling. I'm here for support. Maybe try saying to yourself that it could happen. "This could happen on the 7th, do I want it to? No"

luchalysol

Date posted: 5y

Ocd interrupted me when I said the statement and said yes. I had a mild panic attack while driving. I kept apologizing to my son for my mistakes. Im 24hrs away from seeing my son and logically I know ocd is trying to get me to stay away. It just sucks that ocd is trying to take away my excitement about seeing my son.

Dess

Date posted: 5y

@luchalysol That happened to me when it came to my mom. I was scared but the only way I could even try to "accept it" was to be around her more

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