Daisy102
- Date posted
- 5y
beckywtheokayhairbeckywtheoka...
- Date posted
- 5y
I have struggled for so long with that exact obsession. I’m just now starting to feel more calm about it, and I was able to do so by trusting that God knows my true intentions and heart even if OCD is making me question both. I can obsess all day on whether I’ll go to hell or not, but in the end I trust God more than I trust my OCD, and I trust that part of my brain that tells me what I really know: I’m trying my best to follow God, I know that. God won’t hold me accountable for my OCD thoughts or actions bc he knows my true intentions at their foundation. Sorry this was kind of long, hope it helps! ❤️
RogueKingRogueKing
- Date posted
- 5y
As weird as it sounds it is biochemically possible to habitate yourself to a fear of hell. Religious OCD has been my most enduring theme, so I am not belittling the fear. Beating OCD is not about "not being that bad". Other suptypes have this too. It is that bad if I really did harm someone when I did x y or z. I wish I could say I had a religious breakthrough that made it easier but what turned it around for me was when I hit rock bottom I just learned that God has mercy. . . OCD does not. I had to make the firm and unapologetic decision that I was not going to give up healthy self-love for anything, even salvation. If you can, maybe read a bit of the Divine Comedy as an exposure or by a C'thulu plush toy idol as an exposure. Give it chocolate chips as an offering. I have "Idle Apocalypse " on my phone which is goofy game about running a cult as a safeguard against scrupulousity.
Daisy102Daisy102
- Date posted
- 5y
That means a lot. Thank you. You're right. God does have mercy. Its so hard to remember. But I guess logically if I just stopped worrying about Hell and lived my life happily and did the stuff I would normally do... Would God hate me to judge me for not freaking out more? No He wouldn't. I really don't want to go to Hell haha. I guess though that maybe that is a good sign. I mean if I was evil I wouldnt worry about it. Thanks for you help? good luck to you too
Daisy102Daisy102
- Date posted
- 5y
I really appreciate that. Thanks, Becky. Its terrifying, but you're right. He knows more than my OCD. I mean He created my whole brain so I can trust Him. Its gonna be okay. Thank you? and I wish you the best in your quest
beckywtheokayhairbeckywtheoka...
- Date posted
- 5y
Thank you, same to you!
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- Date posted
- 18w
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- Date posted
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