This is TMI and maybe embarrassing to post :(( I keep feeling this desire to make out with boobs. Like BIG boobs. I’ve always been aroused by big boobs but never wanted anything to do with them. I’m fairly busty myself and so I’ve always wanted a guy to do these things to me. But now I’m wondering if I’d also wanna do it.

Yes exactly! I think my thing with big boobs has grown from the fact that I have them and I want a guy to find them sexy. If that makes any sense!

@garden Same, but ocd is like nah that’s denial

@wellwellwell Yup exactly. Or it’s an excuse. It’s hard because with porn I only ever choose vids with busty girls because I guess that ‘does more’ for me.

@wellwellwell Also I’m so so sorry I just saw your recent post and I worry I’m the one who triggered you. That was never my intention. Just know I’m in the same boat as you, and a lot of other girls too. I’m starting to learn that being aroused by boobs doesn’t have to define my sexuality nor does it have to define yours. Like... at all. Again, I’m so sorry if I made you anxious!!

@garden Oh my god no you really didn’t, I did a lot of thinking afterward! You did nothing wrong, I’m so glad you shared honestly, I feel less alone!! And i think you’re right. You have a boyfriend right? So I’m sure you get the anxiety about leading on the person you love. But I guess that big boobs are kind of like a big dick in porn you know? Like that’s what’s visually appealing more often than not

@wellwellwell I feel less alone too :) I don’t actually have a boyfriend but I can totally imagine how it feels to have one with HOCD! I’m sorry you’re going through this. But yeah big boobs are just over sexualised and so maybe arousal is inevitable

@garden I’m sorry you’re going through this too❤️❤️

@wellwellwell We’ll get through it ??

Hi, I can answer but this wasn’t my post. I have HOCD, so my primary fear is that I’m actually gay and I don’t know it. I’m married and aside from being aroused my breasts in erotica, I don’t feel that way in person. I want a man to play with my boobs, etc. but my biggest fear is that I’m wrong about my sexuality and am actually gay, don’t love my husband, have led him on, and will have subpar sex forever. I don’t think it’s wrong, but I hate the uncertainty that I’m not as into my husband as I thought. I’m an ally and totally respect the lgbtq+ community, but don’t want to be wrong about my relationship and be forced to leave my relationship bc I didn’t know I was gay

@wellwellwell Lol sorry about the massive post

@wellwellwell Don't be sorry at all! I really appreciate your explanation. I just joined this app today and was a little bit confused by these posts but that makes total sense. :)

@wellwellwell Basically, the fear is that because I like bug breasts in porn and erotica I might actually be gay and be leading on my husband, so that sucks even though I don’t think being gay is wrong!!

@Mewturus Yeah! There is 100% nothing wrong with being gay, I’m just terrified that I don’t know myself and all of this means I don’t love/will never be satisfied by the man I love

I don’t think it’s bad at all! And honestly I fear HOCD can come across as a little homophobic at times. That’s never my intention and I don’t think anyone here doesn’t support LGBTQ+. It’s more that sexuality is so complex and uncertain, that there’s so many compulsions available. Hence it’s a popular theme! And people get stuck. But it’s nothing against bisexuality or homosexuality. Plus sexual orientation OCD doesn’t only hit straight people. Often gay people may fear they are actually straight. It’s a hard theme.

For me since there’s so much ‘proof’, I freak about by being aroused by women and stuff. But it’s nothing against women who get aroused by women... if that makes sense!

@garden For proof, do you just mean like the big boobs thing or just what ocd makes you think

@wellwellwell I get a lot of false attraction and that’s what feels like proof for me personally