garden
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avaaaavaaa
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hi I’m new to this app and I have been dealing with what I hope is hocd for a while. I feel like know what you mean. Have you also had those times where your mind tries to trick you that you have a crush so like when a specific person is around you get a lot of anxiety when you have to interact with them and stuff? That is what really gets me stuck into rumination.
garden garden
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Yup! I’ve gotten that with some of my friends :( I know without HOCD I wouldn’t be feeling this way. I hope. Also welcome to this app!
avaaaavaaa
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@garden Thank you!!! You don’t know how happy I am to hear that!! It’s so good to know I’m not alone in this!! I totally relate on that...it will happen once and a while with friends but a lottt with random people!! I’m here if you need to talk about it!!
garden garden
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@alexa Yesss same. Or on tiktok I’ll see a girl and wonder if I’m attracted to her. It feels very real at times!
avaaaavaaa
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@garden yup!! Tiktok spikes my anxiety a lot. I’ve been trying to distance myself from it because it seems to be one of the common things that triggers me...like a lot of the time I won’t even be focusing on how the person looks in the video then I’ll get a lot of anxiety out of nowhere and then a weird unwanted senesation...like it really doesn’t make sense!!
garden garden
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@alexa Exactly that. My issue is that I love tiktok as it distracts me from my OCD. It just sucks how it triggers me too hahahh!
avaaaavaaa
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@garden fr!! Then I’ll be scrolling and see a cute guy and won’t feel anything and i will panic!!! The thing that bothers me most about the whole hocd thing is that it takes away a lot of my genuine feelings for guys I desire...I’m hoping they will return one day...but then my mind tells me maybe I forced feelings for guys in the past before hocd!! It’s crazy hahaha
garden garden
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@alexa Oh no literally same here to all of that. They will return for us though, we just gotta accept the uncertainty around it!
garden garden
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@alexa Argh this female tiktoker who I find really funny just liked my video and I got so happy. I’m scared it’s a crush!
avaaaavaaa
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@garden I could see how that could be scary!!! Just think of it like how people get excited when a celebrity notices them! Fans get excited when Ariana grande notices them it doesn’t mean they have a crush on her!! It’s easier saying it then believing it because I totally understand how you feel but I hope that comparison helped a little!!
garden garden
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@alexa It did, thank you ? I just really hate HOCD. I feel like all my life I’ve been trying to prove to others that I’m straight. It’s like I’ve never been certain of it.
avaaaavaaa
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I get it!! Like legit my hocd started really young...in fourth grade I asked my friend if he liked my other friend and he went “no maybe you like her” and I knew I didn’t like her, but I got so worried people viewed me as gay, and as the years went on the fear just got worse and I started to believe I was and now I’m here...quarantine really made me worse, I always have the thoughts and anxiety but since it it has heightened so much.
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