Hello everyone. Is it OK to ask for some love? I know it's super weird but I need a bit of motivation right now. I'm going through heartaches again and I feel so bad. Today/tomorrow is a semi important day to me and I'm suffering from the break up. I'm so sorry. I know this is the wrong place to do this but I feel so lonely right now. I havent forgotten to take my meds but they aren't taking away this mess inside my brain. I feel so selfish... I'm so afraid that this heart break is just not wanting to be alone instead of missing the person itself. But I'm almost sure it isn't.... I don't mind being alone... It's selfish, when I know she deserves someone so much better than me. I'm so sorry. I just want to talk with someone. To feel less alone... This loneliness I feel comes from abandonement. No matter how much I understand her reasons to break up, I still feel abandoned. It's feelings vs logic all the time. I keep telling myself she deserves better. Someone kinder and smarter and beautiful. Something I don't feel like I am. I'm so sorry for asking for this. I don't want reassurence. I don't want compliments. I just want a comment for me to feel less lonely. I will never be able to love and trust again... For many reasons. And no one will love me either. I'm too awful for that. I'm ugly and gross. And because of my former gf, I lost trust on people. How can I believe in someone that tells me they will never give up? She said it and left me. Am I so worthless? Maybe I am. The only thing that keeps me sane is telling myself she deserves better.

Thank you so much. I cried reading this message... It's my birthday today and I feel miserable. I'm turning 24 and I have nothing to look forward to than an empty future. Also, I love your name. My name is Helena! ^^ nice to meet you

@myocdstory Hi H ? what a lovely name. And 24... that's a beautiful milestone! I don't know itlf this helps. But here is a site about famous people who seemed to have failed early on. JK Rowling was broke and a divorced single mother before writing Harry Potter. Albert Einstein didnt talk before age 4, and he was thought to have a mental disability. https://www.lifehack.org/articles/productivity/15-highly-successful-people-who-failed-their-way-success.html Point being... You feel you have failed now. Okay. That is a real feeling and is so so discouraging. But... Say you gave up now. H, we would never see what the world could become. If JK Rowling had decided she was a failure after her broken marriage and poor finances, she never would have tried again. You might think this is silly, but please stay around H. Don't give up. The world literally needs you. If you are a mistake, you are the most miraculous mistake known to man! You have talents and feelings and capabilities, and you are utterly unique. If that was by accident, how grateful we all are for that accident! You have power to make a difference. A small difference, maybe, or a well known one. Who knows. But H, I really want to see What the world becomes because of you. I want you to, when you die, look back and say... Huh. I guess I did something. You deserve to be happy just as much as the rest of us. Were all a mess. But if any human deserves joy, then you do too. Keep going! You are stronger than your fears. ????????try to notice one thing today that you do good. Even if its on accident. Then tell me what lt is okay? Even if its tiny and small, as small as I got out of bed today. That is a real accomplishment some days.

@Daisy102 I... I don't know what to say... Your message made my day, of course but I don't know how to express gratitude for your time and support and obviously all the love you have put into this message... Thank you so much! Just... Thank you. Thank you for making me feel important. I have made mistakes in this life that weigh me and make me wonder if I deserve to live. I'll keep this in mind when I feel low. (hugs you) really, thank you. I'm sorry for the hug. I truly appreciate your help and kindness!

@myocdstory *hug back* dont be sorry! This is hard. Deserving to live, to smile... Fill in whatever, is hard for me too. Its a struggle. ? but you make a difference for me and for more people than you can imagine. It sucks. It probably will continue to be terrible for a bit. But not forever. I promise you that. In the end things will work out if you want to do good and keep trying to find the light. Even if you stop trying and start again. You can do this H. If you dont deserve to live, I dont either. And neither does anyone. It hurts still, I know. But we gotta work on believing the logical thoughts and not the self loathing ones?

@Daisy102 My point in saying that is that we all feel like crap sometimes. If everyone who felt like a bad person truly didnt deserve to live, then I bet a significant portion of the population of this planet would be kicked out. To feel something does not mean to be something. I say this just as much to remind myself as for you. Its hard... But keep trying to believe it, even if at first you just hope. Theres a beautiful quote that says if you just want to believe, start there. You don't have to know everything, but let that little desire to believe work in you until you can keep growing and pushing through until you get to a better place. I love you and we can do this!!

@Daisy102 I wish I knew what to say... Thank you for supporting me... I needed to hear those words. Today has been harder than usual and I don't know what to do anymore. I feel trapped

Thank you ❤️

Thank you!

Thank you so much for your support... The day got better as time went on.