I'm extremely scared. My rocd and hocd are going bonkers and j have no idea how to control them. My hocd is being such a bitch at the atm though. My new obsession is I just see my bf as a friend but I call him my bf because of the heteronormative society and I'm so scared. I don't want girls but my brain gives these images of me being sexual with them and physically I make this disgusted face and I dont want it but then my brain says that was I truly want inside. Each and every moment my thought feels really true and I feel so bad. Hocd has also made me lose my libido and now it's distorting my natural feelings for things. I'm so confused :(

Honestly same sis. I don't want to lose guys like I've always been attracted to them and I don't want to lose that. Thinking of girls makes me physically shrivel :(

I'm doing self therapy and it's going great but some obsessions make me so scared

@sanzida? Same.. I'm so scared I'll leave my boyfriend because my thoughts are making me feel i don't love him and will never be happy with him. It is showing me lot of possibilities. I don't want to leave him. 😭

@magicwizard Same here!!! Like he is just so precious to me. My rocd and hocd show me these scenarios where I'm leaving him and physically I'm paralyzed and making that disgusted face but inside I feel like I'm liking it. Like I don't like it but I get these feelings :(

@sanzida? Yes... It's very tough for us. I don't know why it's so hard to recover. I've loved him from the day i saw him. It's been 6 years. And i was so sure i want him but ROCD and HOCD is ruining the most precious relationship to me.

@magicwizard Oml!! 6 years!? Sis that's so hard. I'm really sorry. I've been with mine for a month but he was my friend for so long I literally don't want to lose him. Ugh my hocd literally made me emotionless and I feel so bad :(

@sanzida? We are in a relationship for 2 years and 4 years we were best friends. But from the day we met i knew i want him but there were some circumstances i couldn't be with him. But ultimately god let us be in a beautiful relationship. But i got hocd amd rocd since may and it's ruining my life. We still don't fight. We communicate very calmly but i cry everytime i talk about my thoughts to him. And he cannot see me crying 😅. He is very mature and supportive. I hope we'll get through this nad our relationship will be stronger than before. 😊

@magicwizard and* our relationship will be stronger than before.

@magicwizard My boy friend is the same !!! He is just so sweet and supportive like ughhh it's such a blessing. I got him after my third battle with hocd and I'm so happy. I'm so thankful to God I got him. But unfortunately I relapsed into hocd and rocd started out of nowhere and it's literally ruining me. I want to cry really :(

I get false memories and these false "desires". Like I'm so sick of them. My libido is gone and I feel like a part of me is gone :(

Exactly yk? Like I can't tell if I want him. When I started dating him, I was so sure and so in love but now I feel like I'm gay, my libido had been gone for the last two years and I feel like complete crap :(